whole lotta cute today! I got to work with some cool people on this coool kids show that I will be talking about more in the future! I was a little nervous about doing it, given some weird brief history with an friend of theirs but all was well and fun! We all got along great and the shots looked awesome!!! i'm excited for the finished product ( Read more... )

*sigh* ok so this weekend has been a crazy party! everything was fun and awesome, i got to play and dance to good music and no stupid drama shit happened plus i was inebriated half the time which happens far to little! so yes good times. also things with the new inter-boy are going amazingly well! he's coming out to visit in a few weeks and i'm so ( Read more... )

...for my teacher to be such an unforgiving bitch!?

*sigh* any way in other news Things with the inter-boyfriend are advancing faster than my connection speed! I't all good but somewhat unsettling. i guess i'll see where it leads.

I may have just met the man of my dreams...over the internet...haha oh, why now!!??

I hope I don't fuck it up to bad.

Tonight, today, this week, it's all relative to me. Hours and days seems to blend, swirling around in the bottom of my nearly empty cup. I feel sick, but there is no medicine that will fix this feeling, I put it there and now I must extract it. These negative things, they just put them on the surface, I ingrained them deep into me and let the skin ( Read more... )

work up at 3pm, missed my favorite class, instead I got to hear my mom bitch over the answering machine about how much of a fuck up I am. then I had the honor of blowing my voice out yet again to get into a screaming match with her about how much of a fuck up I am.

some days I think I should just have stayed asleep.

Ok so I am now at a new step in my life, Because I didn't end up with the RA job I now can't afford to continue the dorm life so I am off in search of my first place, along with my roommate to-be who has also never had her own place before. I am both excited and nervous, I fantasized about my first place when I was young but now that the time has ( Read more... )

I have never been turned down from so many jobs in my life!

Why won't any one hire me! I have an amazing work history! Never fired, always outstanding customer service, smiled so much my face hurt....WHAT MORE DO YOU PEOPLE WANT! WHO DO I HAVE TO FUCK IN THIS TOWN TO GET A JOB!!!!!

and now I also need a new place, fuckin sweet.

soooo I just got home at like 7am I have an important interview in a few hours. I spent the night with my friend Liz and two guys we really just met tonight, got way to drunk had way to much fun and came home way to late! YEAH COLLEGE!!!

fuck I also got a message from Dave, and I responded....fuck.

I hope I get the job!

what is it about control that is so dangerously appealing? why do we feel like it is dangling just out of reach? who put it out of reach? was it us, and if so how did we get it there? how can we reach it ( Read more... )