This isnt for people to read and think they know me just from my entries. This is just for myself because I love to write. Ever since my good friend Paul died last year, Ive been more inspired to write. I have my own journals that I write in every single day. Writing is like a release for me. Its an escape from reality and it just all around makes ( Read more... )

So yea. I went to leave for work and I smelled really horrible dog shit. I looked into the dining room and Zam had diahreah all over his cage and all over him and he was drooling and shaking pretty bad. Who knows whats happenening with our dogs? Muffin is in the hospital right now because her ass was bleeding last night. My mom thinks someone is ( Read more... )

This is the happiest Ive been in a long time. I fucking love Jesse, hes so amazing.


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Even read this fucking thing anymore? I dont even care anymore. Im just writing to let out my frustrations. I know nothing bad is probably happening but my mind wont let me think otherwise. I wish I knew what was going on, I wish I knew how certain people felt. My heart is hurting so bad right now. I thought being in love was supposed to be a good ( Read more... )

Wow I dont even know where to start. My mother is very upset with me because I want to quit school. Im not happy there. I dont want to be a massage therapist, I dont want to do this for the rest of my life. I know I should have thought about this before I started school but I just wanted to make everyone happy that I was finally doing something ( Read more... )

What a day, trapped inside these minds. Forgot to tell you that i found someplace to go ( Read more... )

So lately ive been feeling like shit. Today I broke down and cried because Im broke. My dad is helping me out with that though so I feel a little better. I fucking hate my job, I really need to find a new one. Im too much of a pussy to do that though. Alot of places dont hire me because of my piercings or whatever but fuck it. Im insanely bored ( Read more... )

So much shit has been going on. Ive been busy busy busy. I bought a new car yay. I start school on October 25th and I picked up Wednesdays at work. Im going to be so dead. School on Tuesday, thursday and Friday. Work Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday and Sunday. SHouldnt be too bad. If i didnt buy this car, I wouldnt have picked an extra day up. ( Read more... )

I really need to ask myself who my real friends are.

So I dont think I could feel like a bigger piece of garbage than I do right now. I just read my friend's journal and Im not sure it was a great idea. Im crying on the inside and out. I wish I could go back in time and erase some of the things I said. We talked about it and I thought things were better until I read what I did. I dont know how to ( Read more... )