yay im on my break right now. I working till past 11 again. Im not sure if im excited or not, yet lol ( Read more... )

I'm not here for your entertainment ( Read more... )

so yay. I think i had another panic attack tonight. Matt pretty much freaked out again ( Read more... )

There are things that used to make me smile ( Read more... )

I’m afraid ( Read more... )

I'm not really a compassionate person. and that bothers me. Its just not in my nature to feel bad for MOST people. Its so much easier for me to look at the situation and tell you the mistakes they made.

but i feel like other people. im too compassionate. I let things slide. I shouldn't

I hate drama. I dislike people who start it. Even worse, are ( Read more... )

Me and matt...are dying my hair....at this very moment. RED lol. I dunno im kinda skeptical. But I'll see how i like it red. of course i love black. it works well with my ... EMO ness lol

even though most of the people who read my lj...arent even home right now. i Hope you bastards are having fun at thes con:P

Yesterday was fun. Went hiking with andrew, brittney and eli. Andrew went barefoot almost the whole time! flippin crazy. Then i went to work for about...and hour and a half...what a waste ( Read more... )

ARE YOU:
1. A Cuddler?sometimes. sometimes i just like not touching other people
2. A morning person? no way
3. Tall? No.
4. In your pajamas? Im still in my work uniform
5. Left handed? No.

LAST
1. Friend you saw: I think Eli
2. Talked to on the phone: My matty
3. Friend you texted: My matty
4. Was today better than yesterday? Kinda

FAVORITE:
1. Number:18
2. ( Read more... )

I feel like things might be settling down for me. 
Ive been spending so long trying to get people to like me...but FUCK THEM. I don't feel like being friends with liars, and people who don't like me for me. They can all go fuck off. Ive spent too much time crying over their stupid shit.

I'm realizing i need to take the initiative with things. ( Read more... )