little trees. little bees. little knees ( Read more... )

they found cancer in her lung.
she is my heart.
i am dying.

red stains my cheeks as i walk the halls ( Read more... )

needle marks her skin, arms and hands. she looked beautiful today but it still made me cry. i drove all day to be with her in that cold hospital room. i had to leave when the nurse came to poke her finger, give her shots, up dose her medicine. still figuring out how to deal with all of this ( Read more... )

today mother pulled me aside to show me a list of antiques she wants to keep in the family and who is getting what. after showing me she just looked at me and said, "okay?" i said okay as if everything was normal. as though she wasn't facing her mortality. she said she hopes its a brain tumor and not the disease they think it is, because the ( Read more... )

mother is having a brain and neck scan done. this is because she hasn't been able to walk really, drive her car, or write for over a month now. i don't know how i feel about it. its almost as if all my life i've been waiting for something like this to happen, just to stop me from worrying ( Read more... )

deedee has been hooked on heroin for years. she moved back in with her mom, even though deedee is in her 40's because she is sick, again. growing up and learning the truth about the family. bobby was married three times. once to an underground jazz musician named hal russell. hal inspires me to play the vibes. although he is dead. i remember ( Read more... )

a beauty of a boy said hi to me the other nite, he resembled another beauty i know but i hate comparisons, hate them and kept quiet ( Read more... )

ink dribbles down my hand just like the way you did when you came ( Read more... )

last nite johnny ate my cherry and i cried when my sundae came ( Read more... )