i hate these strange moods i get into. bad mad strange things they are

basically i have survived. the foggy mind, the strange thoughts, the desire.
i got me back
the cruel cool me
the kind creative me too
im happy
thanks to those that help me see what i was worth
and fuck ya those that kept me in that other world.
yes

recent events have made me more detached, cynical about things. been lied to, played for a fool, manipulated but in a dull silly way and sadly the people who did that think they are getting what they want and that i am who they want me to be ( Read more... )

I am very tired ( Read more... )

so ok, im looking after nicolette again, she is an 8 year old girl from downstairs, she will come and stay for a week or two, i like when this happens, it makes me softer ( Read more... )

had a fight with someone special today.
she had been messed around around by her family and also by so called friends
and i should have been there for her
but i wasnt, i was vunerable and bitchy like i can get.. damn i hate myself sometimes..
we left on bad words
stupid words

sometimes i think

i do a wonderful job

of slowly killing love

feeling good ( Read more... )

im going to do something crazy and insane and...

she makes me want to write