OMFG. Just when I thought it was over...it isn't to the least. I was so tired, when I came home from the Manteca waterslides. All I wanted to do was pass out and die. I watched a movie downstairs, and I came back up to go to bed. I was soooooo tired. I had enough trouble falling asleep as it was to begin with. Well, I fell asleep around 1- ( Read more... )

Is it just me or are those damn bitches from high school mulitplying and expanding their kind? Good God. I went to the Manteca Waterslides today with my family. As we were waiting in line for the rapids, I noticed (well, EVERYONE noticed) these two very young-looking girls, probably 15 or 16 years old with pierced navels and a look that screamed ( Read more... )

Yeah...another sad, sad story to tell. Or not. GAH, it was another one of those family days today, cept minus some people. Mama Norma and Mama Judy took my sister and me shopping. Then, we came home, and shortly thereafter, family showed up. Everyone was here again. Loud house. I was in no mood. I spent about an hour in the kitchen bitching ( Read more... )

It seems that I have not written in here for a long time. Apparently, I have more happy thoughts than I do sad. In case you new readers are wondering, I put all my 'happy thoughts' into my other journal. I have a headache, I feel shitty, and I am helpless. I still don't know what school I am returning to. I have NO job. I am completely fucked ( Read more... )

I'm a bit fed up right now. It seems as though that more often than not, Jeremy compares me to his ex-girlfriend. Whether he does it to tease me or piss me off purposely, it still bothers me. I feel like, no matter how much reassurance he gives me, I have to compete with her. He doesn't realize that he compares her to me most of the time ( Read more... )

I'm depressing again. My eyes aren't clear enough to lash back at him on the computer screen. He doesn't get it. Jeremy will never get it. I cried again so hard...so incredibly hard. We went on about our beliefs and whatnot. I will never feel perfect for him. Never. I will always live thinking that I am what he never wanted. So why can't he ( Read more... )

Ok, so I'm working on my website. Jeremy, apparently, was browsing through as I was working on it and stumbled up on my random section. Click here to visit the new layout. Anyway, Jeremy pointed out how he and I are much too different on issues we believe in. The disagreements outweigh the agreements. WAAAAY too much. It frustrates me, ( Read more... )

Ok, it's 103 degrees today. GRR This overwhelming heatwave gives me more motivation to get the hell out of here. Speaking of which...I finally figured out my whole college dilemma. I applied to three different JCs outside of Stockton thus far. One happens to be CCSF (City College of San Francisco). I've been straining myself, looking for a ( Read more... )

GRRRRR So I spent a few hours straining my eyes with my computer screen, looking at colleges. Colleges, colleges, collges! DAMMIT, I knew I should have looked weeks ago. I'm such a procrastinator. I HATE IT. UGH I have no clue, where I am going in the fall. I know I'm not going back to that shithole Dominican University. I don't have enough ( Read more... )

Yeah, so my little sister and I just finished watching 'The Recruit.' Is it just me...or does everyone just want to rape Colin Farrell? Seriously...I didn't find him at all that attractive until I saw him dominate Bridget Moynahan (yeah, that would be the skinny ugly chick in the movie lol) in the scene, which he shows off (so I'd like to think) ( Read more... )