Ok, so I talked to Jeremy and came to the conlcusion that I move in with him. I figured that I could get a job up in his area, be able to pay partial rent, and go to school at the same time, when fall comes. I can't stand being treated like I'm 15. I spent months away from home; no rules, no curfews, no AUTHORITY. Gah, I also think that if I do ( Read more... )

I seriously need to get a life. It's 3:30am. I promised myself - bed by midnight. I was wrong. Instead, I find myself sitting in front of my laptop, typing away like the little nerd geek that I am. I get all excited with what to do next on my shitty website, and then I have this urge to update my journal every so often. Grrr I have a ( Read more... )

I'm so depressed right now. UGH Jeremy came to visit me today. He got here around 11:30-ish this morning. We had fun, but at the same time, we fought on and off throughout the day. It was ridiculous. Lately, I have realized that all the times he has come to visit me, things would be fine until the time he would leave. We'd part on bad terms ( Read more... )

I'm such an insomniac. Not to mention NERD. There's something that I noticed about that word - nerd. Lately, people have been using it like a trendy word. UGH Whatever. I've been claiming myself that for years now. All those idiots are too afraid to admit that they're cool. haha *sigh* It's 4:16am. My bf is leaving his house before noon to ( Read more... )

I am so annoyed with the way things have been going on over here. I am fucking eighteen years old, and I get treated like I'm 15. Let's see here...I flew out to Wisconsin to visit my bf, not once, TWICE and slept in his apartment in HIS BED. I spent countless nights going out and coming in at 6am, while I was away at school. I walked downtown ( Read more... )

I hate myself so much. So incredibly much right now. I should just pick up the god damn phone and call him. But I can't. Dammit, I can't. I'd be giving into him, right? Jeremy would want that. I can't give that to him. Not because I know he wants it but because I'm afraid ( Read more... )

...or does she? God, sometimes, I just hate my mother. She does these small things that frustrate the fuck out of me. For instance, she likes to bring up passed incidents during moments that have nothing to do with it...remotely even. GRR It pisses me off. Today, we were sitting in the car. I said something that upset her to the point, where ( Read more... )

I hate stupid people. Seriously...the world is over-populated with stupid people. How do I know this? Everyday, I get harassed by stupid idiot morons, who have no life. All of this, of course, happens online. It is very seldom that I meet stupid people in general, but on the internet -- my block list is full. I haven't been online on my old ( Read more... )

Wow...I just started this journal almost two hours ago, and here I am now. Sometimes I wish I wasn't so lame. GRRR I need to find a new hobby, dammit. Aside from working on my old website (Click Here to take a peek) and writing in two different journals now (you can check out my other one here), I have done nothing but sit in front of my lap top ( Read more... )

Today was such a chill day...absolutely boring. My little sister and I stayed in and watched movies all day. How's that for an interesting day? Of course, I mustn't forget my few hours of computing on my damn laptop. I'm such a nerd. UGH I feel like this entire day was wasted. I could have done so much more with this day...perhaps make an ( Read more... )