Don't know what to say or what to do with myself within this mixed up bunch of daily events. I only pray that God will help me through this tough time. I pray that he helps me become a good Christian and helps me to express myself fully and without regret. All I know is that this time in my life is one of the most confusing I've ever experienced. ( Read more... )

I am so angry about this subject. I really don't even want to write about it, but if I don't express myself about it, I'll explode. Despite the fact that I am bi, I do respect everyone has their own opinion, so on and so forth. But my main feeling on this subject is that the government cannot stop time, nor change. They cannot forbid love by any ( Read more... )

I just saw the movie "Monster" with Charlize Theron and Christina Ricci. That movie freaked me out man. Just knowing that what happened was a true story made me feel terrible for that woman. I'm not a liberal by any stretch and I believe that if you do a crime you MUST pay for what you've done. But I also think of that quote in "Ever After" when ( Read more... )

Lovers love, twirling with the romanticism of the wicked game video. Tear me up. Build me back up. Hold me tight then walk away from me. So far away. Sit in my heart. And yet go to sleep next to me like forever is forever for us. What will it be in the next version of my life? Warmth within the glacier of this house. Impossible relationship. And ( Read more... )

I am ghetto. There isn't a doubt in my mind. But there are many types of ghetto. And I know I can be mad ghetto sometimes. And it's not the bad ghetto, because I do it all in fun. But I bust my ass, and I take care of my shit. Don't get me wrong, once in a while I'll lay back and let the laundry pile up or there's a little layer of dust on shit ( Read more... )

I always ponder the way I feel as I am falling asleep. The way you gently spiral into the darkness. Like patches of light and then patches of pitch black nothing just flashing across your eyes until you hear nothing. Not a pin drop. And then you have the feeling like you're going to fall off that fucking building and you jolt awake and grab the ( Read more... )

At this stage, there is no need to envision the oncoming traffic of sadness that I have known. Only that I awake one morn to find no hope left in my soul. It is how I become aware. How I become so fully aware that I am sinking into the infamous pit of my own fury and anguish. More anger than depression, but depression none-theless. Less, and less ( Read more... )

For the first time in my life I truly feel like things are coming full circle. I know why, but at the same time, I think that things are changing for the better. It's like a time of renewal. I'm changing as a person and mentally and emotionally, I'm more stable now than I've ever been. More patient, more open minded and more understanding. Every ( Read more... )

It seems as you get older...time becomes more precious than you ever imagined. Sadly...it becomes a commodity to the youth of the now. Something we expect will go away when we are so bored we can't breathe, and last forever on nights when we wish the night would NEVER end. I'm going to be 25 in Oct. and I feel myself changing as I grow. But inside ( Read more... )

It's been a long time since I've written. It feels like years. It feels like ages since I've bared my soul to the internet world and let my hair down with all my heart. I've come to realize that peaches & cream do not exist by themselves. Meaning that when you think that everything is wonderful, shitty things are just waiting around the corner to ( Read more... )