OH YEAH, I FORGOT TO SAY THAT I'M SOOOO FUCKING GLAD JERRAD IS BACK!!!! I'M SOOO HAPPY!!! ME AND HIM HAVE SPENT SOOO MUCH FUCKING TIME TOGETHER!!! I had thanksgiving dinner with him and his family. And idk, i just love him sooo fucking much. lol I pretty much live over at his house now. hahahahaha But i don't know what to get him for christmas!! ( Read more... )

I've just read some of my journal entry's i've read over the months. A lot of shit has happened. lol I'm 17 now!! it doesn't feel any different though. Only one more year until i'm 18!! yay ( Read more... )

I miss my Jerrad. lol I just wanted to say that. I miss my big teddy bear!!! i will see him again. It's just driving me crazy. i'm impatiant. :-P oh geez. I can't wait to see him again. hmmm. lol God i love him. lol ( Read more... )

OH my freaking god. Last night was incredible!!!! ahhh!!! lol I'll start from the begining. lol ( Read more... )

So yeah that asshole beans decides to tell me yesturday that that whole fucking year and a half....HE NEVER FUCKING LOVED ME. He said since he's been with leslie, it made him realize that me and him were like family. We were never like boyfriend and girlfriend and he never loved me like that. WHAT THE FUCK. FUCK HIM. I know I fucking broke his ( Read more... )

by calling him that helps me get over it. I'm still having a little trouble. Like, i was pretty much over him when he didn't call, didn't text, didn't anything. but then I get phone calls from him and he wanted to call me because he had a song stuck in his head from when me and him went out and it went, "i love you. i really really do." And he said ( Read more... )

God it hurts so much. I thought I was completely over him. Well, i guess not. And he has a new love. I thought i was going to be his only love like for the rest of his life. He acts like he hates. I really do deserve a lot more though. I guess this is carma.Well it sucks really bad. I told him so many times that i love him and i want to be with ( Read more... )

Oh my god. Things are finally getting better. Good god!! It was getting ridiculous there for a minute. lol There's going to be a new Sarah this school year. I'm going to look really nice. Dress nice. have nice hair. And i'm just drinking, smoking, and smoking pot. i'm done with it. That's not what I want to do with my life. I have a lot of goals ( Read more... )

I know a couple of you saw the journal entry that i put up yesturday. And it worried you guys. I'm sorry for worrying you ( Read more... )

I just feel really worthless right now ( Read more... )