So this guy comes up to me and says, “What’s the vision? What’s the big idea?” I open my mouth and words come out like this ( Read more... )

i am content ( Read more... )

bored:

lack of appreciation for life
extreme self-centeredness

fuck you mr. enlightened.

i feel as if my brain is about to explode.

i cannot even write without wanting to puke at the thought of myself making sense. toe-curling mood.

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wishy washy people ( Read more... )

"I know you inside and out, and find little to my liking. You're not cold, you're not hot-far better to be either cold or hot! You're stale. You're stagnant. You make me want to vomit. You brag, 'I'm rich, I've got it made, I need nothing from anyone,' oblivious that in fact you're a pitiful, blind beggar, threadbare and homeless ( Read more... )

its one of those days. its one of those days where every thought feels so shallow or fake. or so judged and ridiculed. itsone of those days ( Read more... )

i just spent the last hour looking at photos from brazil. instead of appreciating the trip, i wasted the last hour seeing if i was attractive in the pictures i was in. its sick. i am so consumed with myself it makes me sick. i am done with being self conscience. I do not want to care about my appearance anymore. i care so much. why ( Read more... )

i just spend an hour reading through your livejournal. jesus i miss you. you are such an amazing person. i could have read for hours but my porn blocker stopped me going further, i guess you are just too scandalous for me. myspace won't let me respond back to me, its cock blocking me except i am trying to write to you instead of have sex with you. ( Read more... )

Goodness. Tonight was for some reason really emotional for me. The last couple days have been soul grabbers. Tonight, I got into two talks that made me think: One with a Jehovah's witness. She is the sweetest girl with so much passion in her God and it made me realize so much. I realized that I have depended on "everything making sense" for so long ( Read more... )

I want to be raw ( Read more... )