those days when i couldn't fall asleep alone - i would wake up before he did every morning and pretend to be asleep to drink in the warm body and dream-cocoon. it feels like yesterday; it's still on me. for so long i used to drown in despair - fill up my lungs with the retrospective idealism of something that never existed in the first place. ( Read more... )

I put on my watch for the first time in 4 months today.
It felt like I was attaching a prosthetic limb...
I'm having phantom sensations of a free wrist.

Tomorrow is the day.

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Is this thing dead? dead dead deadity dead? I hope not because I still have words yet

i feel i've been asleep for a year or more, and now can come fresh starts, clear mind, decisions. home. and space - so much space i can feel it on my neck and hit ground running. how long have i been asleep?


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sometimes everything seems so dark.
but... i'm already thinking about spring, i think i can smell it coming.

i haven't been here in a while because i am simply too sad to write anything

Nothing EVER turns out the way it's supposed to be.

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