i do want i want ( Read more... )

fuck

i didnt do very much today.
i feel like a lame ass.
blah blah blah.
am i lame?

i was like rereading like my last twenty entries and in ever entry i talk about friends and how i either love them or i hate them. lol i am so damn fickle ( Read more... )

ok so lately ( Read more... )

one great song.
thats it.

how come i feel like no one is on my side. everyone is just out for themselves and all i try to do, i do for my family. then why the fuck cant i do it. you know what i seriously need to stop and reverse. its like i always say fuck ppl and screw them , i just need to make my family happy no one else. me, ben, and rick, thats it. thats all i want. so ( Read more... )

this is difficult.

first post of the new year. its exciting wouldnt you say. not really. this year doesnt feel any better than the last. it started out shitty and will prolly end shitty. i am sick of that feeling. like nothing is going to get better. i just want to be out already and i want to start my life. i need ppl to stop holding me back ( Read more... )

so merry fucking christmas everyone. it doesnt at all feel like christmas. does it to you? and yeah yeah i know we should rejoice our savior and i am, i really am and this year i should have alot to be rejoicing about but.... who knows ( Read more... )