I wonder how it is I fooled people into thinking I was OK. I mean back at college, during that crisis. I kept all my desperation to myself, ignoring life by sleeping too much, but all the pain and turmoil I kept down, alone in my room, and to everyone I was bright-shining, happy, helpful, spirited. Why didn't I show any symptoms of depression? How ( Read more... )

I realize now what kind of money I make, when I lose hearing in my right hear and an intense pain rocks my skull and locks my jaw, and I'm scared most of the doctor's bill I can't pay, and rather than curse the agony and fear the loss of sound, or wonder what horrid thing is going on with my ear, I'm thinking "God no, I can't pay for medicine, I ( Read more... )

I had several hundred hits to the site yesterday because I did some fan art for Penny and Aggie, and I didn't include my website, but Ms. Lagace looked me up, found my site, thought I drew very well, and posted it! How cool is that? I got my first fan email too! I can't describe how flattered, how energized, rejuvenated, excited and exuberant I am ( Read more... )

Neronis had a great birthday. Lots of people came by; Lars & Lynn stayed overnight - slumber party! - and we played games. Saw Superman in 3D, ate good mexican food, went to a concert. Had a minor panic attack while there, and MFAH (Museum of Fine Arts Houston) is terrible at organizing youth events. No clearly marked exits, overpriced drinks, bad ( Read more... )

Neronis and I are dieting now. We're not doing it for the wedding - we're doing it for life. I've never been able to do it for me, so I'm doing it for Neronis, our future kids, and a little bit for the wedding. (Just because I know that I've overdone it myself with Sheridan's cooking - as fabulous as it is and as healthy as it is, I just let my ( Read more... )

Partied this weekend. Jahl came over around midnight Friday, talked with Neronis till 5 in the morning - I was dead-dog tired from the previous week, so I was asleep by the time he came over. So I didn't get to see him, but Mnemone and he said Hi, so in a way, it's communication, right ( Read more... )

I'm tired of being asked my opinion on President Bush, immigrants, and foreign policy, especially by coworkers ( Read more... )

I met Lars, one of Neronis' childhood friends, this weekend. I am super jealous - but not in a crazy way - of his talents, his job, and how much he is in the artistic SCENE. Here's his website : www.freelancemartin.com - I know, it's like www.freelancecleric.com - it's funny how things get like that. I miss seeing Jahl and Mnemone too - I wonder ( Read more... )

Neronis and I already have picked out baby names. No I'm not pregnant - gosh no. But we like to dream. Here is our original list ( Read more... )

So I once said I thought time was going unbelievably slow... then I bought World of Warcraft. Suddenly, I look up and it's May. Funny how that is ( Read more... )