Being George is wonderful when everyone is smiling... but when your there and she's crying becuase you've both made a horrible mistake being george really really really sucks. It kinda makes you wish you were Alex ( Read more... )

I wonder if im going to post a real post on here again im kinda tired of it all right now

http://www.kuro5hin.org/story/2005/5/9/83936/58483 --->>> I encourage everyone to put this into their LJ so they can understand what Depression and clinical mental healthy problems really are. I am tired of people not understanding or telling me to just be happy. Do ( Read more... )

I like getting paid but I dislike my job ... fixing computers for like 9 hours strait becuase the company just destroyed their client database is... unpleasant... a note to all of you out there... if your going to get rid of a file copy a blank version over it... if its deleted it can be retreived but the blank with same name seems to destroy the ( Read more... )

So... I am still going through my transition... meds stoped working but they upped the dose so maybe they will work again... hopefully... but I did this fortune telling thing called angel cards its like tarot but all posative ... I got the new love card... tonight I met a really cool girl... it just seems odd but I dont think anything will come of

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Girls... its as simple as that some how it is linked to my depression before I was depressed it never bothered me... now I have so many issues with them my relationships are complex and painful and drawn out even the ones who are just my friends I have trouble dealing with sometimes... I want to figure this one out why do I feel like I NEED love ( Read more... )

it seems like every hour is a new story... I go from suicidal to just fine that fast... my whole world and life seem in upheval and its driving me fairly nuts... hope seems pretty far away these days

yeah... I spent 4 days in the hospital... I'm alive... probably for the best im in an outpatient program now... I hope it works, nay I pray it works... we shall see

I promissed an old friend, a new friend and the girl I love that I wouldnt do anything stupid till after this weekend... If I leave you all behind its been an interesting run... I feel as though I'v lived a very long time in my short time on this world but battling this depression on and off for what feels like forever has drained me of joy and ( Read more... )