who actually thought it would last?
who actually thought i could keep a guy?

pft. yeah right.

it wasn't even my fault.
i put myself out there.
i was ready.

he just doesn't want me.

i always get fucked over.

how can i ever trust someone with my emotions...
when its so predictable every time.

i woke up next to the prettiest boy this morning.

its been a month
im not running
he's not running
but
im still holding my breath
subconsciously
waiting for something to go wrong

this is so unbelievable
i am relived, captivated, and
hopeful...
nothing is official but
im holding on so tight right now.

everything i thought it might be ( Read more... )

he likes you.

don't fuck it up!!!

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i love Sheridan Brooks Perrin, with all i have left to give.

but i can foresee things coming around
just the way i want them
its so weird
i never thought this would happen
life is so crazy
and yes im getting my hopes up
because i have nothing to lose
god can hand me a bunch of lows
but im a "Sheets"; we're lucky
i'll always have a hand of face cards somewhere

:D

my heart hurts.

again.

i give up completely.

im not happy


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day to day i reminisce on the times when:
"guys liked me..."
"i had black hair..."
"i had so many friends..."
"i drank every weekend..."

i get so emotional when i talk about when times are good
as if my life isn't great anymore.
[continuing to read this, please know, im happy, i am.]

however,
i've relized i don't have an image anymore
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