I am about to get my teeth whitened. Part of me feels good about this, like I'm taking charge of my appearance. Like I'm finally going to feel comfortable smiling open-mouthed. Part of me feels like a total white-toothed joiner. My genetically yellow teeth have been with me my whole life. I also am starting to worry that I will look bad with ( Read more... )

Scott fuckin' sucks. He is such a doucheface little bastard. I hate his goddamn guts. Why did he have to change his myspace password? It was the only thing that brought me joy. Fuck him. Also, he's ugly. Fuck Scott. Fcuk Snott. Goddamn is he ugly. I wish we were having hot sex right now but he didn't write his giddamn research paper. He ( Read more... )

I feel very small and hardened a lot of the time. I feel like someone took me and carefully, from nervous habit, rolled me into a tiny ball between thumb and forefinger ( Read more... )

In Salt Lake City for the weekend, surrounded by bad Mormon drivers, Scott tucked me up against him, shucked me on the sidewalk, trucked me around the city like he knew where he was going. I don't think anyone has ever, ever put themselves between me and the road like that. Scott's the best ever ( Read more... )

Here's a little poem that I am about to write (will have written by the time you read this ( Read more... )

I hate being a girl. I hate all men ( Read more... )

When it is 1:14 in the blessed morning and there are no words on my Word document, when it is 1:16 and minutes ticking by like soldiers in a line past Anselmo hidden at the lookout, that is when the war is lost. When the fascists have won, those dirty pigs with curlique tails ( Read more... )

I sometimes think really rationally about things, but most of the time I think about things with my heart. And then when I'm done, I bring in my brain to quash all those silly faffy shitty ideas ( Read more... )

My roommate turned out to be literally crazy! Hooray!

I hope Scott still feels really proud and happy about not wanting to live with me. As the days wear on and I find myself wearing thin on patience, I know I'm sure feeling good about it.

Yeah, so about living on my own ( Read more... )