today was TERRIBLE! i mean, i didnt go to school cuz yesterday i had like a SERIOUS emotional break down. and... then today i was all excited about an anti-homecoming that didnt happen b/c Kat decided to flake on me prolly to hang out with ben. and i'm really bitter b/c i told her so many times how i felt ditched by her now that shes "found some ( Read more... )

i miss being comfortable... i miss being loved.

bye bye birdie consumes my life right now. i mean, everyday 530-830 and fridays from 215-5... sometimes saturday from 10-3 and... its insane. its fun... kinda. the shows gonna kick ass so you should all come see it. oct. 21-24!!! i'm not a lead but who fucking cares. i rock in it!!! -lol- but yeah.. i'm tired lately and i just want to get out and ( Read more... )

never forgot the time you made me feel alive ( Read more... )

until its over... then i look back and cry. not just about recent events *eh hem* you all know what i'm talking about *eh hem* but about the past in general. people ive lost, things i've said, people i've let go... some for really stupid reasons. i look back at the times i've done harm to myself and i cant help but think about how screwed up i am. ( Read more... )

anxiety and anticipation always fill my mind ( Read more... )

Hi, i was just passing by ( Read more... )

i did something stupid...

thats it

they think im so perfect just wait and see ( Read more... )

i feel like no one gives a fuck whether i live or die... or if i'm happy or if i eat or... if i cut or anything. i'm dying on the inside and no one notices. i'm screaming for someone to see through the happy, bubbly exterior to the empty, sad girl thats inside.