Lines get blurred and some words lose all meaning when over used. I wish I could make everyone in my life happy. Im such a shitty friend and boyfriend. How'd I stray so far from the pack? Everyone wants the old Ruben. The one that fully embodied the Riot name but no one seems to understand that mother fucker is dead and gone for good reason. I cant ( Read more... )

When I come home from work ( Read more... )

I feel as if the more I try to make sense of my feelings the further i get from the truth. I spent a year so bereaved and devoid of companionship my 2011 is bleeding into the current year at its end. I can feel my contrition growing everyday. In my solitude i found solace and I'm finding seclusion to be a hard life style to break. I often question ( Read more... )

"Something happens at around 92 miles an hour - thunder-headers drown out all sound, engine vibrations travels at a heart's rate, field of vision funnels into the immediate and suddenly you're not on the road, you're in it. A part of it. Traffic, scenery, cops - just cardboard cutouts blowing over as you past. Sometimes I forget the rush of that. ( Read more... )

Life is incredible. Been at the hospital for about 10 months. In this short amount of time I've held like 3 different positions and made a fuck-ton of new life-long friends. So much more than that, I've grown alot. I wish I could go into excruciating detail on the events of my life but it'd be time consuming and pointless. I've had so many new ( Read more... )

I can't sleep at night cause I lay in my bed ( Read more... )

I'm not screaming as loud as I'm dying But since you're judging I'll start running Sing to me like you used to Sing to me and put me to sleep I'm gonna put me to sleep I'm still a child, and there are ghosts And you're a ghost There are ghosts.

Laying here in bed ( Read more... )

this house is a wreck and its really depressing me. Keeping it cleaning is as impossible as nailing jello to a tree. the moment we mop or sweep or pick something up this fucking miserable dog ruins it. Not to mention the countless amount of shit she's already broken. I can't stand this shit.

Everyone told me this would be difficult but I didn't know i'd feel like this. Everything about this situation is so sad and my fault it makes me wanna die. And its hard to clear my head when I don't have too many people to talk to about it. God I hope everything works out