I don't know how to love anymore. And to be honest, I don't think I'm ready, willing or even ABLE to love someone. I don't want to hurt anyone again. And I see Danny at work and I think... GOD, this guy loved me so much... I wish I could love him the way he did me. I don't want to be in a relationship... but I REALLY WANT to WANT to be in a ( Read more... )

I want to say the "L-word" to him, but I know once I say it, it will open up this Pandora's box of uncertainty and stress. I'd have to say it after every time he does, and that turns it from a genuine statement of feelings into a conditioned response. What if he doesn't say it after I do? What if I feel we're saying it too much once we start? ( Read more... )

Err.. I have a boyfriend now.

We're going to the Frida Kaholo exhibit in Philly tomorrow! :)

He's like heroin.

I gave him the mix CD.

There's no turning back now.

This could hurt.

I will be house sitting for a friend of my coworker for THREE months this summer starting in three weeks... RENT FREE... in the WEST VILLAGE... which is a TEN MINUTE WALK FROM WORK!!!

Eeeeeeeeeeeeee!

That is all.

!!!!!!!

The "Mexican food" in New York is a total abomination! Who the fuck puts mushrooms in an enchilada?! Also, the guacamole goes ON TOP of the enchilada, NOT inside. MaryAnne's is a disgrace to what Mexican food should be at it's weakest! Don't even get me started on Benny's! Their salsa tastes like it came right out of a fuckin' can! At least ( Read more... )

So it's been a long time since I've posted something on here. Here it goes ( Read more... )

I'm having sex with this guy named Joey. He's short and skinny... not usually my type, but he looks like James Dean and will let me bump him up the butt. He recently purchased a bed restraint so he could tie me up and have his way with me, but I'm not really into that. I actually fought him off and tied HIM up, which I think he secretly ( Read more... )

I feel like my current state of mind and self-perception is cripling my ability to recognize and utilize the power of my sex apeal ( Read more... )

I've come to a point in my life where I can honesty say I love myself. I'm an amazing person. I'm amazing not because I feel I'm better than most people, but because I'm better than what I was. I'm the person I've chosen to be-constantly evolving into something better. I've been perfecting myself for myself. Why should I need someone to love ( Read more... )