things i need:
a car.
$1500 for china.
a full time job this summer.
change.

things i want:
my GED.
apartment with katie.
live journal to be cool again.

things that are happening:
finally becoming successful in making music with katie and cody

"nobody knows you, nobody gives a damn."

i feel very bloody on the inside.
i wrote a very very long letter today to someone that will never receive this letter unless i die. it's probably the most honest letter I've ever written in my life.
but it did things for my heart...but then again, I'm still short of what i need. but it may just be something i want, not need.

you fill my blue ( Read more... )

HEY. I'M TRYING TO LIVE IN CHINA FOR ONE MONTH THIS SUMMER IN ORDER TO SERVE THE LOCAL CHURCH AND ILLEGALLY EVANGELIZE. IT COST $2500. I NEED YOUR PRAYER AND MONEY. IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO DONATE (ALL DONATIONS TAKEN TO HEART) PLEASE EMAIL ME AT plush_joy@Yahoo.com THANKYOU!!!!

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i love you husband, whoever & wherever you are ( Read more... )

i haven't written in this thing in forever.
or is it wrote? i dont even know. but im definately up at 3:31 am.

im going to miss stephen jordan. and his sister chelsea is really great too.

i hate having like 20 new books and trying to read them all at once. but its hard to read one at a time.

but life is really awesome.
2007 is going ( Read more... )

and i also think that my favorite sufjan stevens album is seven swans

yesterday i was in a bad wreck.
i am alive. I'm still here for a reason.

today was beautiful. so beautiful.
i woke up with a book under my head, and i could feel the cold winter air on my face as it came through the crack in my window. and i heard my beautiful nephew laughing in the other room.
there is somthing so amazing in a child's laugh.

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This is the story of the boys who loved you, who love you now and loved you then

And some were sweet and some were cold and snuffed you, and some just laid around in bed

And had crumbled you straight to your knees, did it cruel did it tenderly

And some had crawled their way into your heart, to rend your ventricles apart