i forgot all about this thing... i do that alot. every year i start off saying i'll use it, and i never do. fuck that. im just not gonna say that anymore, and not delete everything this year.... maybe, i dunno. im thirsty... and tired.

not really in the mood to post about how my birthday went, so im not gonna go there. it was the 11th, btw.

somas...

ive been wearing this crazy, stupid wrist band to sleep at night, and i think its making things worse. its covered in in velcro, and elastic, and has the metal thing thats suppose to suport my wrist, and every day i wake up my hand hurts in a diffrent place. im gonna try not wearing it for a few nights. i think its making things worse. i dont know ( Read more... )

yesturday was a complete mess. on behalf of myself....fuck. after last night i give up a little.

so,i had a dream a while back... friday night, to be exact. it was the typical thing. you know what im talking about. starts out good, ends badly. but this morning i had ANOTHER dream that was quite the opposite. it somehow started kindof rocky, and could have gone way worse than it would typically, but it actually ended in the sweetest, most ( Read more... )

im out of my mind. im kooped up in a place i dont want to be, everybody is trying to drag me places i want to be even less, and i still havent made up my mind about shit. part of me wants to fight everything, take everybodies altimadums, and just ram em down there throats while mostly om me, fankly just wants to give up, take a bottle of sleeping ( Read more... )

i just feel real damned lately...

i know... took me long enough.

happy new year.