Well, things are going well. Brendan hasn't quite figured out the night is dark and day has lights in it, but last night was better. We only got up at 1, 4, 8 and 11:30. Instead of feeding every single hour until 5 a.m. and not sleeping until then like the night before last! Not much else is really going on. Mom has 2 more weeks of intercession ( Read more... )

I love being a mom. Its exhausting and tiring but so worth it. Its really hard to believe you can love someone that much.I've only really known him 5 days. I love my son so much and would so die for him in a second to protect him from everything. Mike is taking baby steps. He's learning. He's been over every day except once when he had to work ( Read more... )

Posted new pictures on my new arrival page from my son's sonogram today. She got my hopes up today about inducing me. The radiologist read my AFI at 4, which is incredibly low. But another doctor came in and read it again and found 11, not 4. Which is good. So, unfortunately no inducment and they gave me lunch, monitered me longer and then let ( Read more... )

GET THIS KID OUT OF ME!!!!! I am so sick of having little feet jammed up into my rib cage 24/7. Its uncomfortable, it hurts, and its annoying as hell. I would be more than happy to have him tonight, but oh no, according to the dr we're not even close and I'm probably going to go late because its my first baby. Splendid!!! I am sick to death ( Read more... )

Well, the glider and I had a fight but I won. So, now I have a glider to rock my littleboy to sleep in. Its very empowering I've noticed the last few days doing everything myself. Like I was really worried about getting all this stuff home without a man or an explorer per se. But we've managed. And everything is ok! Its just proving to me once ( Read more... )

Well after talking with a friend of mine I discovered happy news and bad news. One, Michael does want to be a part of his son's life and wants to be there for the birth. Great. Thought hopefully it doesn't stress me out further him being there. Plus I was told that he's trying really hard to move out of his parents because he wants the baby to ( Read more... )

Well my first full day of bed rest is over and its incredibly boring. Luckily I got my laptop up and running so I can sit here and blog all the time. But seriously what could be that exciting to blog about if I can't leave my bed? Not a damn thing. Talked to Cathy a bit today. Apparently she isn't hanging out with "the group" hardly at all any ( Read more... )

Here we are 3 days into the New Year and I cant help but remember the last 2 past New Years. They were so happy. I miss them. I miss the people that I met. I even kinda miss the girl who I thought I was. But now as much as I try to resist it, things are changing. I'm going to be a single mother. Because my sons father unfortuntaely is worthless ( Read more... )

Its amazing I wrote my last entry on Dec. 18. The last thing i said I could use was a guy to make me feel special again. Ok what are the odds that that would actually happen??? Yeah, I met a guy named Marc and he's really nice. He asked me out and we went out Friday night and had a great time. The date lasted til 5 a.m. and we started at 6:30 p. ( Read more... )

Well, every day gets a little easier. He's moved on without me and there's nothing i can do about it. But I've been taking more chances and trying to get out there and meet more people, thus why Stacy and I went out last night. Actually left my number for the waiter guy. He was cute, called us miss instead of ma'am cuz lets face it, I'm not that ( Read more... )