Its no wonder i am so confused about everything and driving everyone completely nuts. One person tells me 'no, wants you to forget about him, move on', another says 'theres no hope, he doesn't want to be with you', another says 'yeah he still asks about you', another says 'he doesn't know what he wants, he still misses you and he knows what he's ( Read more... )

Well, guess I'll go eat and then go to my sonogram appt. If the baby is turned the right way we might possibly know if its a boy or girl today. Yet the one person I want to share it with more than anyone doesn't care and isn't talking to me. But I guess I must adapt to doing things alone. I just wish I didn't think this day was going to be a big

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This is what an explorer can do to a neon when the driver is drunk and stupid and hateful and decides to drive up onto the hood of another car.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoo.. ( Read more... )

I am completely back to square 1. After Mike and I "supposably" got back together on Sunday and I specifically asked where we "boyfriend/girlfriend" and he's like yeah. So, knowing we're working on getting along and getting to a good point I accept that. I accept that he loves me, wants to move in with me and our baby, everything is starting to ( Read more... )

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Ever feel like your sometimes so close to a breakthough but yet so far? I've got so many thoughts in my head, they are confusing themselves. Words are merging to form new words, its madness. Its been recommended I let go. I want to because it will make him happy but i just can't get my fingertips to release that last little part. It feels like ( Read more... )

Why does it have to be so hard? Why can't it just be easy to get through your day without that one thought running through your head? Why can't it just be ok? Why can't I just control my hormones and my emotions and just not say the first thing to comes into my head? Why can't I stop and think why am I getting upset about this? Cuz I know 3 ( Read more... )

Its kinda ironic. I know its just make believe and stuff, but I've been watching Friends. You know the one where Rachel gives birth to Emma? And she knows she had to do this all alone and raise her baby and she knows that each of them will go on and be with different people... and it just strikes a cord. Everything I hear Rachel saying, I can ( Read more... )

Ah, another weekend! Just relaxing, not having to hurry to do anything. Mostly I just worked this week. I was supposed to have a counseling session on wednesday but it got cancelled because her baby was sick. So, I rescheduled it but forgot I don't have the whole day off, so I need to rereschedule it! Only 2 more days until my first doctors ( Read more... )