Today is Joe's 30th birthday. Unfortunately he'll never see it. He passed away in May of 2006. I loved that man with everything I had, though I didn't realize how deeply my love ran for him. He was funny, easy to talk to, "bad" in his own way, and had such a cute boyish charm. I was good for him, though someone thought differently. He knew he could ( Read more... )

*forgive the cross-posting everywhere. i wanted to make sure i reached everyone*

( sorry it's so long )

last night started my first night with out Justin. he'll be at Sea Dogs for the next 5 days. I don't want to say i'm lost with out him here, cause i can still function (ya know, do laundry, dishes, cook, clean, go to work), but he's missing from my daily routine and that's what throws me off balance. there was not nearly enough kisses exchanged ( Read more... )

so i am apparently heading up to Portland in July (the 16th and 17th to be exact). Justin made me do it! i swear! i mean, i wanted to and all, but with me fussing and stressing over money it was a hard decision for me to make. finally justin told me that we can always start saving up money later, but if i go crazy from not getting out of the house ( Read more... )

that i actually make it through shit ( Read more... )

so i've got a situation and i'm trying REALLY hard not to be depressed about it. i mean, i don't wanna be depressed about it, i knew it was coming but sometimes we just can't help ourselves.

sorry bout the cryptic crap, but i'm just not ready to share yet...just send some positive energy my way...if you could...that would be great. thanks.

i am grateful for ( Read more... )

so it's been a month since my last post and A LOT has happen! way more then what any monthly time frame should hold! lets see if i can remember it all ( Read more... )

it really does. you would think yesterday would hate me, since i'm not to found of yesterday (the 27th) but NO, its today! it's almost as if today is the big brother of yesterday and it's picking on me cause i don't like yesterday. (did anyone else follow that ( Read more... )

i feel so overwhelmed. lost and maybe a little confused ( Read more... )