things are looking good here. i still don't have a job, and february's bills are vast approaching, but i know everything will work out. honestly, the only things i worry the most about are my car payment, insurance, phone, and rent ( Read more... )

so i'm sitting here, looking through some of my important documents and i'm crying. why, you ask? because my stupid marriage certificate is in with these important documents. Feb 14, 2002. what a horribly fucked up day. that day is fast approaching again...and will no doubt be a horribly fucked up day.

friends are amazing. one helped me find an AA meeting tonight. i didn't realize how much i actually needed one. they're definitely different from AZ meetings. bigger, friendlier, more at peace.

it is definitely true what he says "it gets easier. just hold on cuz it's a bumpy ride. we all need a little help sometimes." and my favorite as of late " ( Read more... )

i'm getting the fuck outta Az ( Read more... )

i should post something here, but i don't know what. im tired and that doesn't help any. i have a lot going on in my head and body. emotions, feelings. im just all blah. my puppy is sleeping on my bed, shes so cute. she turned 5 on the 31st of july. its not that bad. i've known some jack russles to live till their 15. i love my little girl. she ( Read more... )

It's amazing how hurtful people can be. Stupid comments that people don't think or realize will get back to me. Just cause you don't know some one doesn't mean that what you said about them wont get back to them. its just really hurtfull.

so i have this ring. its nothing special in the looks department, however, in the emotional sentimental value, its priceless. its just a slim gold band with a small aqua marine stone on the top and two very VERY TINY diamonds on either side. i have had this ring for a very long time. more then 10 years but less then 15. anyway, my grandmother/ ( Read more... )

Cross post from myspace ( Read more... )

So seriously, how can I be the queen when im freaking depressed. There has got to be something totally wrong with me because I swear I have no reason to be this way. Well, other then finding out some crap at work, but its not enought to get depressed over. I think im getting sick, I wish I could die. Just roll into bed and never wake up. Although, ( Read more... )

Ok, so im not to sure how this works, maybe its just cause im a female or pisces. Maybe its both, either way i dont get it. What don't i get, well im getting to that ( Read more... )