Today started out all right, then it all went downhill, then it picked up, then went downhill, then picked up, then went downhill...I love days like these...I'm kinda giddy and psyched about tomorrow, just because it's another day that I'll get to live, and because something will probably happen. Something good. The world, in all its natural beauty ( Read more... )

Last nite was fucking sweet. We had a small get together at a friend's house and I had a fucking blast. A few of us smoked like 3 bowls and a joint and were so goddamn fucked up it was hard to walk. Everyone was drinking just about, although nobody really drank much. I had 2 shots of Jim Beam and a Smirnoff. It was lovely. I couldn't tell if I had ( Read more... )

It seems as though things may be looking up. I'm in the process of forgetting, and at the same time I'm developing a new way of thinking. It's terribly funny, Garrett and I were talking about how I am a realist and him an idealist, yet we think a lot alike just in different ways. I've gotten back together with a lot of my old friends and somehow ( Read more... )

I would just like to say that nothing stays the same, and nothing ever changes, and I love the majority of you.

I need a day of fun and intoxication. Louisville is cancelled tomorrow, which blows tremendously, but isn't all that bad simultaneously. I don't know what the fuck I'm gonna do after school for three fucking days, but home doesn't look promising. I want to get out of the house...

It seems as though I am not lost, but simply forgotten.

Show me a man who does not question his every action, and I will show you a man who has achieved happiness in it's truest form ( Read more... )

Eventually I'll be able to come out of hiding...I hope. The thing is, I'm tired of hiding, both physically and emotionally. I can pretend all I want, but this is not what it seems to be. I don't remember being what I've become, and I don't want to be this any more.

Well, I guess it had to be this way. I'm pretty sure it's not what either of us wanted, but it just turned out differently than I expected. I don't know what to do really, but I understand that once a mistake is repeated so many times it's come to be expected, so I place full blame on myself, as should everyone else. Leave Tyra alone. She's a damn ( Read more... )

Well...I'm in 2nd block and today already hasn't gone well. Last nite I went to Wal-Mart to get something and they didn't have what I needed to get, so I came home with plans of going to bed. I stayed up till late, though, so I was really tired when I got up this morning. I brought something along with me today to give to someone, but I don't know ( Read more... )

I'm not really sure how things are going...at first I thought they were getting better, then I thought that it was all standing still, and now I just don't know. I feel like I'm left out on a lot of things...well...not really left out, but majorly uninformed. I guess it's for the better though ( Read more... )