so yea...it has been a real long time so i think that i will catch up on everything that had happend. there is a lot so prepare yourself. so me and criag broke up, and him and patrick said that they would never go out, then the next day or somethin, they are going out. then three days or so into the relationship, patrick cheats on criag. and my ( Read more... )

grrr...im so tired all the time but when i go home to go to bed, i cant sleep. frost my cookies!!!! what should i do? grrr... well tomarrow i get to hang out with my lil craigery till like 5 or something. i am so glad. i want to see him more often thatn wht i do. at school just isnt enough. he works all the time and now i have to work a lot ( Read more... )

oh my fizukin god. i am so pissed. i have to sit home tonight cause derrick has to work. and no one is talkin to me on aim. fuck it all. whtever. this shit pisses me off tho. i hate sittin here starin at the fuckin tv and computer screen, while no one talks to me, except sara cause she cares, and i had planed for fun to. i wanted to get ( Read more... )

hey. everything is workin out so much better!!!! i am so glad. i called tony and got everything out. i cryed of course, but since i talked to tony about the whole thing, matter were much better. it helped a little to talk to everyone else that i did talk to, but, things worked out a lot better when i talked to him about it. i didn't get the ( Read more... )

hey there. whati really want to say is thanks to everyone that made me feel like i am somone. all of you know who you are. thank you so much for bein there for me. i can't tell you all how much i appreciate what yall did. words can't express it. but yea. i am still kinda iffy tho. i wrote tony a long note, telling him everything. he hasnt ( Read more... )

why me? i dont understand any of this. i hate the drug thing that i had to do. my brain is fried. i hate it. cause of it i have no heart, no feelings, at least i think that i don't. but i guess that i am totally wrong. i can't stand to hear about it. who can i talk to? tony? no. craig? no. derrick? no. carie? i don't even know if ( Read more... )

wht do i do? i shouldnt be alive. who likes me and who dosnt? who is a friend to me and who isnt? who is really and who says that they are my friend just because they feel bad that the GAY kid has no friends? why am i here? wht is the point of my being born? i feel so shitty. one time is miss icky bitches class, someone told me i am a waste ( Read more... )

god, don't u hate it when ur two good friends are all like grr at each other? it puts me in such a bad mood. i hate to have my friends mad at each other. i feel like shit when this happens and i dont know why. it is all confusing. god damnit, why do i have to have feelings? i dont have feelings what so ever for my parents, but i do for my ( Read more... )

a big hi there and hello kiddios!!!! how is everyone? that's nice. but yea, i will share what has happend since the last time i updated this thing. but see i can't remember it all. dosn't that suck? umm, oh i am such a good driver. well i think that i have improved a lot anyway. but anywho. hmmm. well i don't really remember anything ( Read more... )

hey my little poopoo platers. i cant wait for school to be over. i get to se my sara again today. and i hope that craig will call me sometime today too. i miss him. i am in our 5th hour and he isn't here. wht do i do? hey babe, i know that u will read this soon, so when u do my babycakes, call my celly!!! but anywho, i might stay the ( Read more... )