diary of a mad person

[ftwmonroe]

im so tired today. sleepy tired. ive started restricting agian. i feel so fat. i took a shower and let the water fall on me for a long time. i had so many thoughts about my fat. i feel like im relapsing again. it feels great yet it feels miserable. i am painfully aware of waht im doing and why ? i want to prove i can.

Comments

[abadcliche]

I've been on vacation for two weeks and have definitely lapsed. I've only gained a pound from it, which is nice.

But this entry was what I needed to jolt me back into shape. Isn't it funny how even just three lines in someone's journal can be exactly what you need to motivate you?

So thank you for that. :)

[jamie205]

Why do you feel you need to prove anything, and who are you proving it to? xoxo

[pangsofbeaut]

i hate how sad you sound
the pain resonates
*hug* i love you
chin up

[ftwmonroe]

Thank you for your comments everyone. Im proving it to myself that I can do it again. I want this and I feel it that I want it. Its odd strange yet a very familiar feeling.