ok so things have really changed for me. i dont live at home anymore...actually i live on the southside with one of my friends... me n nick are talking still but i dont want to be with him anymore...people tell me i would be a lot better off without him and i think they are right...i have feelings for a new person and i dont know how to react to it ( Read more... )

ok so life hasnt gotten any better...but i want to apologize for being a bitch to people in my last entry...so me n nick are still broke up and it sucks but yeah theres nothing i can do about it i really want nick back but i dont know if it will happen...i hope it does...i love him so much and i dont think i have ever loved somebody this much in my ( Read more... )

i hate my fucking life and i wish i could just curl up in a little hole in my room and never come out...so me n nick broke up thursday...i would just like to thank all the stupid bitches who made that happen by having so much drama be put on me...those who read this you know who you are and this might explain why i was a bitch earlier...i really ( Read more... )

i am so fucking sick of everyone...i dont want to deal with peoples bullshit anymore...starting shit with me could turn to a mistake...those who dont know im not the nicest person when you piss me off...i wish people would figure that out...no wonder the two kids at columbine shot their classmates...people are really cruel and dont know when to ( Read more... )

ok my life is seemingly perfect right now and i dont really have any complaints... i spent the night with nick last night and hung out with him, kylie, and matt...it was fun and i was glad that i got to see him for the first time in like two weeks...i love him a lot and i never thought that i could love anyone as much as i do him ( Read more... )

ok so the last few days have been really hard...first a friend that i have known for a really long time committed suicide and then nick decided to say we are on a break...god i wish i understood guys ( Read more... )

ok so my life feels like it is over but i dont think it is...i was told yesterday that there is a very high chance that i wont graduate on time...that really sux but thats the price you pay when you fuck around too much...looks like no more partying for me until this shit is done...my mom would fucking kill me if i didnt graduate...plus nick is mad ( Read more... )

there are too many ppl who want to control me and tell me how to do things....too fucking bad that aint gonna happen...ppl need to just leave me alone oh well fuck it i guess ( Read more... )

wow ok so people are really dumb and its on my last fucking nerve...if kylie gets this then she needs to call me or something... somehow her dad found out i was smoking at their house and someone keeps pranking my phone thats a guy and knows i hang out with kylie... man i am in such a shitty mood ( Read more... )

ok well today totally sucks...i cant believe i didnt see how much of a bitch crystal was to begin with...she needs to leave me the fuck alone...she thinks she can change herself to look like me...ha she could never look like me she looks too much like a man anyways ( Read more... )