Good god i forgot I even had this fucking thing lol. Well I know no one is reading this shit but I decided that I am going to vent on here instead of on myspace...Well there have been so many changes since I started writing in this journal over two years ago. First of all I finally got over nick and reed. I am with the love of my life named nate. ( Read more... )

well ok so things are somewhat normal for me and thats really hard for me to deal with cuz i have never had a normal life....i talked to joey today and that was really cool cuz i liked being friends with him...i miss hanging out with everyone back home but im glad im with terra and megan cuz they have got to be the coolest people in the world... ( Read more... )

ok so life has officially began in arizona...i have a new job and its fun and its in an office...but im so not the type to be pictured in an office but oh well you get the point...so ne ways things have been crazy here and today is terras bday...it was fun cuz we went to chuck e cheeses...she had never gotten to go when she was a kid so we went ( Read more... )

well ok so i have left boring ass iowa and now im in gorgeous arizona...its great and i love getting to hang out with my aunt...i finally graduated from high school...how the fuck did i manage that???? i never thought i would...so some of my supposed friends have decided to abandon me...well the truth of the matter is they werent even my good ( Read more... )

life is normal as usual...everything has gotten back to normal...im back to arguing with my mom and school life still blows...just 3 more days...then im a free girl...so i still havent had any phone calls from the evil bitch that keeps calling me...its been 2 days now and nothing but silence...it must have something to do with the fact that nick ( Read more... )

ok so tonight was rather interesting and somewhat good...actually the last couple days havent been too bad...so im talking to this new guy josh and hes way cute...i went to his house tonight to kick it and it was cool...then i got pulled over and that was funny as fuck...i didnt get a ticket thank god cuz otherwise i would have been royally pissed ( Read more... )

ok so i have given up on caring about everything almost...im livin with my mom again so that way i can graduate and get the hell out of here...may 24th is freedom cuz thats when i go to live in arizona with my aunt...i know that doesnt bother anyone but you know what thats cool...i really dont care...i am having withdrawls of not partying at adams ( Read more... )

ok so last night i decided to be a dumbass and take a bunch of stacker 3 pills and get all fucked up...big mistake!!!! i seriously thought i was going to die and it felt like i was going to stop breathing...how much fun is that? now everyone is trying to put me in rehab but i wont go...i have unfinished business...and ky jelly i know i have been ( Read more... )

ok so a lot of things have changed since the last time i wrote in this so i definitely need to update... i dont live with my mom anymore...actually i live with two of my guy friends...they are really cool but i have a thing for one of them and i need to change that...he is not the type for me but yet i like him...i dont love him because i still ( Read more... )

ok so things are sort of calm but the hardest thing i ever had to do was to let go of nick and not talk to him no more...but if that is what makes him happy then thats fine with me...i like being single right now because i dont answer to anyone but yet my heart still wants to be with nick...i know i fucked it up by the shit i told him and the shit ( Read more... )