"No one good ever likes me. I dont like that very much. Its always the creeps, or the users, or something like that."

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"For all that is real in my head....you are fake ( Read more... )

Lately, I've had a bit of a romantic relationship with someone. People weren't understanding why I wouldnt send nude photos, or have phone sex, not that I needed to do that with them anyway, because the reason was someone that I wasnt 'even with'. See, Im the kind of girl that only has interest in one person at a time. Theres plenty of people that ( Read more... )

So much has happened since the last time I posted. Had a boyfriend, left a boyfriend. Had a friend, left a friend. Basically the same old crap. There is, however, a new guy making me happy. He seems different from the others, more genuine, more willing to try to understand me for who I am. I met him the first time when I was 18, hung out with him ( Read more... )

I'm just sitting here, being bored again. As usual. I really don't even know why Im writing but I guess I sort of feel like maybe I should get back into it a little bit ( Read more... )

I feel...like I should say something to you all. Not that anyone reads this anyway, which sort of makes the whole thing rather pointless, no? Not much has really changed since my last post. Except for the fact that I have established to Tony, that in reality, I do care. Unfortunately. Rather hidden and ragged emotions over the whole thing decided ( Read more... )

Ok well, relationship has failed. v_v Stupid relationships anyway. If I didn't already write about this, I now have a son. He is 4 months old, today. Yay! Hes rather adorable. But what would anyone expect coming from me!? Come on ( Read more... )

How are you supposed to feel when the person that supposedly loves you so much its rediculous constantly tells you how empty they are? Are you supposed to smile it off and tell them there's no way? Are you supposed to cry? Are you supposed to get upset? Do you let it be, but never forget? Do you think about it all it the time? Do you let it break ( Read more... )

Well reading through all this crap that Ive been writing for the past like 5 or more years was quite the interesting moment. Its funny how I used to write about so much in such great detail and then just like started writing about lame ass crap. Today was supposed to be a more interesting day. Darlene was supposed to come get me here at the shop, ( Read more... )

I'm not pregnant! That's a relief. Now hopefully it stays that way. I had to borrow 250 dollars to make my rent and crap. At least I don't have to pay it back. That's also a relief. bleh. I'm at the community college right now waiting for my friend to get out of class. I don't remember what time she gets out. I know it's a little past 11...dang. I ( Read more... )

Today I just found out that my account is 154 dollars in the negative and I will be at LEAST, yes, at LEAST 100 dollars short for my rent. I have no registration on my car and I don't have the 50 bucks to get it back. I have to get a second job just so I can pay my insurance, which is 280 dollars a month. I think I might be pregnant, but I'm going ( Read more... )