when i get home tonight i'll miss him.

ps: happy birthday steph!

my hair is red & black now:

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everyday is like a fucking nightmare.

i can tell that
i'm falling inlove with you.
the bruises prove it's real.

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and every last one of you can leave me the fuck alone.
yeah, including you.

i'm going to check myself into ridgeview. i'm going to get fixed.
i'm going to fucking get away from all of this.
every memory & fake fucking laugh.

i don't care anymore. right now,i really fucking don't.
i hate woodstock. & i fucking hate this county.
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valentines day. national single suicide day.
you take your pick.

either way this holiday sucks. red everywhere, candy, flowers, & so on. i didn't have any gloves to dye my hair with so i did it bare handed. my hands are all valentined out, blood red. the hairdye kind of smelled like cinnamon. so.. i have red/black hair now & i need a fuckin ( Read more... )

i love my friends. i really do. sheila got in trouble again and i'm SOSOSOSO sorry.

last night: run in with cops, michelles house, illegal stuff that i didn't take part in [for once], josh gravit NOT shutting up & talking about eveyrthing known to man, sheila passed out on the couch, me & kenny rocking out to ringtones, watching bits & pieces of ( Read more... )

last night was good. though i saw someone from my past that i probably shouldn't have seen. especially when he wasn't in that good of shape. period ( Read more... )

sometimes i don't know what to do with myself.

The August sky will then bare witness,
To a brand new chapter with torn up pages.
When the planets align, I can feel the gates opening.
To my courage
As I proceed to run my fingers through her hair
And forget everyone who's jaded, 'cause they don't matter,
And I don't care.

i just forgot how to pronounce "definatly" for about a minute.
no sleep last night, maybe that's why.

I NEED:
-license.
-job/money.
-to get my head straight.
-to get ready for class already!