note to self: take things more lightly
aka
STOP TAKING EVERYTHING SO FUCKING SERIOUSLY, god rachel, wtf?!

I want it all.
I want you, I want him. I want what I can't have. I miss what I don't have and take for granted what I do have.
Deja vu, maybe this time I can do it right.

Unfortunately, someone always gets hurt.
But it won't be my boyfriend of a year and a half, no, not this time around.

I'm going to start writing in this thing again, even if nobody reads it. If some people do, that's rad. That makes me feel like my thoughts are worth something ( Read more... )

3 days until I get my SAT results back.
3 days until my AP Eng.Comp. presentation.
10 days until I get my paycheck.
11 days until I'm out of school.
12 days until I'm in Maui.
23 days until I can legally drive people around.
38 days until the one year anniversary of me and Blake :)

Life is good.

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i'm feeling really anxious lately. i'm so done with high school. it's boring. i just want to get started already. i want to be in college persuing careers and working towards building a foundation for my adult LIFE. i want to live in a cute little apartment and go to school and work at trader joe's and just be independent! i'm so sick of high ( Read more... )

I'm trying so hard. And you still think I suck.
making friends is so fucking difficult. it'd be easier if everyone didn't judge the hell out of me.

Driving to school this morning, my ipod is on shuffle, a certain song comes on and triggers old memories, instantly brought down, the 'what if's' couldn't escape my mind all day. the entire day. i feel like i've thrown so many people away. i can count my loves on one full hand. that's excessive. i get attatched, rejected, and then i detatch myself ( Read more... )

is a fucking good movie.

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Please stop trying to "improve" yourself with material things ( Read more... )