gettin rid of my net pplz. now that joel iznt helpin me out wif da bills(cuz we're not 2getha nemore), i cant afford it. sorry. i am sure i will still talk to yaz. jenn i didnt kno u read this bebe. luv u. goin 2 da bar now. bye-bye

joel was a big asshole last nite. we got into a big fite. he went crazy. i thought he waz gunna hit me. reallie. den he smashed the webcam. fucker. i told him 2 get out n i aint forgivin him til he sayz sorrie n buyz us a new cam.
fuck you.

so nothing eventful has happend, thatz why i havent updated reallie. workin lotz, joel is practically livin here n he helpz me pay da billz. i dunno y he duznt jus move in. itd save him the rent at his place. n we'd see eachotha more! heeheeheehee.
well thatz all

yeah so i guess i should fink good tings..but i dunno. i miss him so much. i cant wait to see him. but i just feel weird. its goin 2 be so awkward. workin at a car dealrship is a lot more work then i thought it would b. o well, i make decent money. i guess.

joel mailed me 2dai. he wantz to get 2getha on the weekend. im so happy. of course therez so manee thingz that can go rong. wurked 9-5 again today. 2morroe they asked me 2 work 9-8. i said okae. dunno y, i hate my work. o wellz.

first public entry. tryna figure things out still. i miss joel a lot but i have realized hes not worth it. nobody has ljs, so i know nobody reads dis. i dunno. thingz r not goin very well rite now.im startin to fink im crazee. who knoz.