Guardian angels with bad teeth and perfect timing

[fullspeedbaby]

So last night I decide, for good, that I'm leaving school because I don't fit in and I'm not good academically...etc. And I talk to chantal and louise and erik and dad about it, and I make up my mind to leave

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[bleeding_smoke]

Holy cow!!!
That's crazy!
That shit happens to me every once in awhile too and totally freaks me out.
Good luck in whatever you decide to do, but if you want to hang out or something sometime that would be cool :)
I dunno if you are around this Tuesday but the opening for my show is then and I hope I see you there :)

[fullspeedbaby]

argh!
i'm going to frederictom for the break and i'm probably still going to be up there tuesday. :(

[bleeding_smoke]

haha that's ok :P it'll be up til the 25th so there is still time :P

when are you leaving? tomorrow?

[fullspeedbaby]

probably within the next hour.

[scalarparty]

wow. nice signs. ..weren't we talking a while back about people -sometimes at least-- being these meat-puppets of the/your divine self just here to tell you stuff when you are needing it (looking for it or not, wether you listen or not)? sure sounds like you gave yourself some good advice!! have a great re-charge!

[fullspeedbaby]

it definately felt like myself was telling myself something. i just don't know if i trust myself yet. ;P. I'm starting to anyhow.

[scalarparty]

...and i know im not a great person to offer academic advice (seeing that it took me 7yrs to get my BFA, got kicked out of my dept(after yr5), ran away to BC and treeplanting, and really only came back because i fell in love with a student from my hometown (then won some awards, and was let back in to complete the degree). But still i think that couple may have had something

[fullspeedbaby]

thanks.
here's the thing though: do you think it they were just testing me, or actually warning me not to drop out?
maybe the trick here is to stick to my guns. i feel like it isn't though.

[scalarparty]

ha that's a tough one... could be there for you to listen to, or could be the other side of the whole (shiva destroyer side, as opposed to say the visnu sustainer side, for lack of better words and abundance of crapy ones like "dark side") right, like it could be that you know what to do and then they come in to disuade you... because the side of your mind/attitude that has fear and doubt and all that wants you to stay put and not evolve... but then again they could be there for you because you aren't supposed to drop out, like you say warning you.... Sorry kid, but there's only ONE who can really tell you. and you know that. And that one is inside your you-ness, so really more meditating, and peeling away the layers to get to the core of it. not me not anyone on lj not any strangers on the street, YOU are it, M, it's all in you

[scalarparty]

"it shifts from being the most vain useless thing on the pklanet, to the most inmportant, and then back again."

definately!
but for me to worry about this anymore is about as useful as worrying whether or not being a girl is a waste of time. It's jut who I am and I can't escape it. school or not, i'm an artist. I've tried not being one and it doesn't work at all. My main problem with school was that it wasn't artistic enough, but I'm gonna suck it up and keep at it. :)
thanks for your advice and kind words.

[porcelainlune]

MYNDI! call me at aimee's. we're going to the social club at 4 then off to the capital lata. the number's 454.3816. callcallcall!xox.

[fullspeedbaby]

sorry man i got this too late. good morning.
if soemthing else cool happens: 449-5615. love yous.

[doidz]

wow myn, that's unbelievable. seems like pretty much a surefire sign. i will say this much though, don't let the universe run your life entirely. YOU need to have a say in in too.

[fullspeedbaby]

that's the thing! maybe they were just testing me! argh. how is this somehow more confusing than it was before?