My kid brother and his wife left for Arkansas today. I always get nervous when my family travels - but I have faith that they'll be fine. He got a promotion that (somewhat surprisingly) put him right back near where we grew up. I'm sincerely going to miss those kids. I love this state and I love my sister who still lives here - but my brother is my ( Read more... )

I get yelled at a lot during my training. That may come as a surprise to many of you - but not to me. So far most of my time has been spent doing book work in the office. Maybe a 6 by 10 foot space with a computer and a safe and a ton of paperwork. Macguffin, essentially. I get yelled at a lot when I'm alone in there for hours - learning about ' ( Read more... )

Finished day two of training. That means I only have sixty-three more to go. (Yup. 63.) It's quite an intensive training schedule, as I'm sure you may have guessed. They require me to work 50 hours a week - minimum. Which is not something I'm used to. But it's challenging, and so far I'm enjoying learning some new things. They say the first two ( Read more... )

Boy oh boy oh boy ( Read more... )

Why, yes, it IS just after 4:30 in the morning - and YES, he IS still up for no good reason. Thank you for noticing! Stress keeps him up. And his brain keeps him up. And he wishes he could just mash the two together like jelly and bury them sticky in the garden. For no other reason than to get a good night's sleep ( Read more... )

Been exhausted and stressed out the past few days. Not necessarily in a negative way - just a 'Lots of tough decisions to make, but I have to wait around for others to make decisions before I can make mine' type of thing. We've all been there, I'm sure. It's basically the waiting that's stressing me out. I've been doing my best to keep my mind ( Read more... )

Last night I dreamed that my father passed away. It was understandably heartbreaking - I think I'll give him a call a little later. I also had a dream I was picnicing with a beautiful blond woman back on my grandparent's farm. It made me a tad homesick, and also a bit homesick for the comfortable simplicities of companionship. Since my last ( Read more... )

Last night I dreamed of my grandmother. It was good to see her again. We were in the kitchen at her home. She was cooking a fantastic feast for the family reunion going on around us and down on her property. Dishes were piled in the sink, and I needed to wash my hands, so I pitched in to help with those. She was busy and focused - but still stopped ( Read more... )

Fell of the wagon pretty goddamn hard last night. Had to call my sister to come pick my drunk ass up. God love and keep her.

I'm a mess sometimes. A lot of times, actually.

'So stop looking so damned depressed - sing with all your heart...'

I had 3 different dreams last night, but the more I think about them, the more I see the underlying theme of them all. Each dream involved something broken, but under construction - a waterslide, a warehouse, a road. Each had someone angry with me - a lifeguard, an ex-girlfriend, and myself. In each dream I got lost, and was helped back on track by ( Read more... )