he goes out with women ( Read more... )

doubts.
faith wavering.
swinging back and forth
contemplating cutting it all off.

but the thought makes me puke. until i realize, it's already been done.

What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us - Ralph Waldo Emerson

sweet dreams, my friends

Friday ( Read more... )

WE HAVE UNTIL THE END OF TODAY TO STOP THE BUSH ADMINISRATION FROM THREATENING HIGHLY ENDANGERED SPECIES AROUND THE WORLD.

The Bush administration wants to allow commercial international trade of many of the world’s most endangered species. If adopted, the new policy would allow the importation of hundreds of endangered species protected by the ( Read more... )

i should have been sleeping but instead i was talking & crying a bit ( Read more... )

someday i want someone to stay.
or to take me with them.

i've enough of this.

and i hate censoring.
&
i cant stop crying.
its been an hour now.

i should probably eat. ive only had pbj today. but i have no appeitite. and i dont need anyones luck.

sometimes i wish the earth would open up and swallow me whole..

then i remember i'm supposed to trust that i'll fly again.

and i stay.. just to find out if it really happens.

the day. from. hell ( Read more... )

well, i've done all that can be done at the moment. its not perfect. and i have to run to the lab to print it all out then i have a brutal math test that i am certainly going to fail.

october thats how i feel about you, october. i cant wait till this is all over.

& on a side note, my thoughts and my love are with him still.