well i had a pretty interesting weekend. i was shitfaced the whole time. i loved it and i hated it. i had a really bad breakdown. i brokedown cuz i got some information from someone about a certain person from my past. the boys name is dan. oh my god am i not over him. it turns out he isnt in a relationship right now, he still lives down my street ( Read more... )

well, the depressing days are back once again. this time i know why im upset. i know why i sit in a crowded room and just stare. i know why i put a smile on my face, but im really crying deeo inside. the reason: my lack of hope. hope is something were supposed to feel and depend on. i have no hope when it comes to life. ive been let down by others ( Read more... )

okay spring break is officially done. i had an awesome break even though i didnt go anywhere. i spent time with my best freinds...it was a good break from stress and issues at western. im soo glad i didnt go anywhere i wouldnt have done everything i did. like clubbing wiht marina, kristy, 1st time clubbing with melissa, carla, and gina. it was fun ( Read more... )

so...its been a couple days since ive updated, the reason: im extremely stressed out about everything. i just want things to go smoothly. im a very mellow person most of the time. other times im stressed or pissed. its a great life! i need to good this semester. i need to. okay enough bullshit about school. im very confused about miles. he freaks ( Read more... )

i stood in the shower for about a half hour just thinking. i know its a weird spot to think about things, but thats just how it came...my thoughts. okay ive come to realize how far ive come in life. i closed my eyes in the shower and when i opened them, i was lost. i thought i was still in my shower at my house. it was strange how lost and confused ( Read more... )

yes the worst day possible is done. i had no fun, nothing romantic happen. i did get candy from kati and trish and that made me very very happy. i also, fell in love with the hottest guy possible. the sad part: he is unattainable for almost every girl. he is extremely hot, but i havent seen him with any girls..curious??? i know me 2. also, i had an ( Read more... )

i hate valentines day...i really do. u feel like shit if u dont have a guy in ur life. the guy would buy u something or take u somewhere or even just make u feel special. but NO i dont have that. gosh i dont wanna sound like a fucking baby, but i am. i am a child in college with no boy for v-day. and i am a baby cuz i just want a boy..a boy who is ( Read more... )

okay so im again as normal confused. im currently sitting bored on a saturday nite. last nite i got pretty drunk, not wasted, not shitfaced. i want to know the meaning of my life. i want to know all the answers in the world. i want everything. but i do realize now that somethings cannot be answered and im trying to deal with it, trying at least. i ( Read more... )

well i am up extremely early cuz im a fucking retard. i drank a nice lovely load last nite. i drank some bacardi o. oh yeah did i add that i met this guy named ross. he was cute. and did i mention he spent the nite in my bed?!? god, what was i thinking? i have no clue. nothing big happened, but the weird part was he didnt sleep last nite. he was ( Read more... )

well, i dont want to complain anymore on this journal. ive had some really good times these past few days. ive come to realize that every little moment in life adds up. im happy actually....but i dont want to jinx my good luck, so enough said about that. oh yeah and to u, u little prick, i bet he doesnt read this but, if he does i want him to know ( Read more... )