i will never cry over a boy ever again

your wondering is this really me? yes it is. ive gone thru things people have never even dreamed about. ive fucked myself up in more ways than imaginable. and this is mentally not psychially. i didnt need any drugs i didnt need to hurt myself, i just went from a sane emotioinal wreck to a insane emotionally unstable person. sometimes i feel like im ( Read more... )

well im home...its been like 2 or some weeks. ive been extrememly busy. and to all my western friends im sorry...i got kicked out of wmu. yes i couldnt belive it either when i saw it online, but then i got something in the mail and that finalized it. i feel like a failure...a real total one. so i guess im going to schoolcraft for a semester then im ( Read more... )

so its been a stressful yet fun weekend. i had a balst drinking and hitting on miles the whole time. im glad he didnt give into me, cuz that would have been bad. trust me. so yay, i was outside for a while friday nite drunk as fuck....smoking my lungs away. kati's bro came up. he was okay looking but i didnt feel like hooking up with him. i wasnt ( Read more... )

ive come to realize god doesnt exist. and if he did he hates me. i want to know why he would ever let my dad go through this. i want to know why. if he was a real person, i would give him a piece of my mind. ive never felt so completely alone, upset, and depressed. why my family? ive gone thru enough with sickness and other fucking shit in my ( Read more... )

well, its been awhile cuz i dont have that many outrageous things happening. basically i drank on fri nite and then we went to the club. it was me, miles, kati, megan, tahlya, and trish. we came back drank a lil more and then went outside to witness someone freaking out. it was pretty bad, i dont think i should get into the details. then, sat i got ( Read more... )

okay id better update since this weekend. i had a fucking blast. miles drove me home on thurs nite. i was sick from fucking food poisoning and then i had "signs" of the flu as my mother would say. i prob overdosed on ibprofuen. who cares. i got better by fri to go clubbing!!!! fri afternoon i went out to lunch with my dear friend megan. it was good ( Read more... )

REALIZATIONS ( Read more... )

so a recap of my exciting but fucked up weekend. THURS: i took my hard precalc exam. then i came back and watched the O.C. which might add was extremely good. then i got dressed for the party. megan, tahlya, and i took about 5 shots of bacardi b4 we left. i was trashed b4 we got there! trish drove us to the party. we had fun there. there were times ( Read more... )

ok im fine now. ive talked to people about my issue. ive listened to their advice. now i think i can start dealing with this. my idea: stop thinking about him and how he hurt me. i need to focus on my life now. i need to start trying in school. tonite i didnt start my idea. ive put off studying for this stupid com 240 exam. i needed to do good on ( Read more... )