when people look at me they may see a mildly attractive skinny person but they dont see the person inside fighting her way out to scream out at the world. they dont see the person inside who's clawing the shit out of that skinny person to try and reach the surface. but that person cant come out, cause people dont know what to do with that kind of ( Read more... )

Life, in my unaltering opinion has a crazy way of functioning. As people, we fall in love. We fall out of love. We get our hearts broken. We think that those broken hearts will cause our demise. We think, "if my heart breaks one more time, I wont survive it," yet we do anyway. Some of us close off our hearts to others and raise a perpetual ( Read more... )

so getting dumped sucks pretty hardcore. not just the being rejected, but the whole idea that the person you love doesnt want to be with you anymore. and since then ive done a lot of thinking.. about my situation in general, how badly i screwed up...again, and about how i feel about me myself ( Read more... )

he broke up with me. wednesday. life sucks. doctor gave me anti-depressants. hope they work. ...k.

he's chasing his dream of becoming a rockstar and this takes up almost ALL of his time. and then the little time he has left is just enough to catch some shut eye. so, while he's out doin his thing, I'm stuck either at school or just lonely without him. and I think I would feel better about it if he would tell me more often that he misses me. ( Read more... )

should i feel bad for being drawn towards a cute guy (who isnt my bf) because he gives me attention? i sorta do, but then again i dont because i know im not going to act on anything. and then i sorta dont, cause sometimes i feel like i dont get the attention from the guy who's supposed to give it to me ( Read more... )

i feel a little bit better than i did in my last entry. i went to work two days ago, and while i was there i met some cool new people. then last night after i got off work i went and hung out with one of my new cool friends. haha. i still dont feel 100% happy or whatever but i figure if i can just find friends that will keep me entertained and ( Read more... )

so this is the way i see it ( Read more... )

i'm not quite sure, if i could eff up my life, any more. i am SO good...

have you ever felt like an arguement or disagreement didn't have to happen? like, it could have been prevented by the control of some emotions? not the bottled-upness of emotions, just the control of them, that could have made this night just like the rest? pleasant and nice to experience? i wonder that now as i sit here, my face in the ( Read more... )