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Frustrated, and I don't think I feel safe enough to spill all the shit on my mind.

Fuck.

Why do people always think you want them to reassure you when you're upset?

Why won't they listen when you say you want to be left alone?

Originally I was just going to sort my thoughts and arguments regarding my husband so I could try to talk to him more assertively. Now I'm going to pour myself a glass of wine and try to cope with the here and now for a second ( Read more... )

Not much to report. Today feels pretty meh, the depression is creeping back in along the sides ( Read more... )

So, let's see where this year has taken me so far... *browsing past entries ( Read more... )

I've been drinking but it's wearing off. The soul crushing depression is setting back in ( Read more... )

I can't pretend to be surprised ( Read more... )

Note: The below rant was originally written a few days ago, the issues have mostly been dealt with, but are still relevant enough I want to get them out ( Read more... )

So, this week, between a flu, a new girlfriend and my inlaws being in town, I haven't really had a lot of time to myself. I generally don't mind devoting a little time to my husband, or letting him run off for a few days, I let him make plans for us because it's important for me to make my appearences and I usually don't have anything going on. ( Read more... )

So I've been having trouble sleeping lately. On a realated note, I've been having more vivid and memorable dreams ( Read more... )

I've been bottling things for awhile, trying to do my best to enjoy my vacation and just escape everything that was dragging me down. It had a couple drops dealing with my former best friend who barely spoke to me and visibly was giving me the impression that she resented me just for existing, and my little brother being barely coherent and ( Read more... )