Wow!

After about a week and a half of being neurotic, overly insecure and overly analytical- I'm finally coming out of the fog.

I think the whole marriage thing and the fact that I'm now inching closer to my 30's everyday finally just built up and built up and I went psycho for a bit.

Change is difficult. Sometimes I feel trapped. I feel like every ( Read more... )

So I’ve gained like 5 lbs since I came back from New Orleans. So I need to lose 30 lbs before my wedding. No sweat....

Blargh!

I’m drinking a pot of coffee and smoking a whole pack a day. I’m sticking to my South Beach diet (other than having a few too many beers now and then). I’ve started walking the dog every day for 45 minutes. Well she more or ( Read more... )

Do you ever wake up from a booze snooze and start having these epic monologs of thoughts and ideas flood your brain? I don’t drink as much as I used to, but I’m starting to think it’s effecting my head. Especially since I’m only really drinking maybe once or twice a week now. I just lay in bed and think about friendships, guilt, lack of motivation ( Read more... )

So I moved back to Portland. It's amazing how in 4 months so much can change and so much can stay the same. I'm NOT going back to work at The Marathon. I'm not going back because I have anything bad to say about working there. I just decided that I need something new and at night. I'm going to take some time off to collect myself and figure out ( Read more... )

For those of you who do not know- I'm getting married ( Read more... )

So I’m in New Orleans. I am finally posting. “woooo”

Uhm. Money sucks right now. There aren’t a whole lot of tourists fueling the flames of tips. It doesn’t help that I work in two places that rely on tourists because the owner is a rich fake bizznitch in her 50’s who wears mink gloves and ugly garish jewelry, and never does any advertising. Which ( Read more... )

It's finally hitting me. I am finally starting to feel something...I'm not quite sure if it's nerves or if I'm gonna throw up, but at least it's something. The DAY AFTER TOMORROW I WILL BE IN NEW ORLEANS! I AM GOING TO LIVEEE there again. It's crazy. I'm unemployed. I don't work at The bloody Marathon!!! holy &*@#&@$!!!!!

I've decided NOT to get a ( Read more... )

One week from Tuesday. I’ll be once again a resident of the city of New Orleans. I’m over come with so many different emotions. I’m going to miss so many people here that I have grown to love. They say you can’t pick your family. I say that sometimes the friends you pick can become your family. I’m excited. I’m sad. I’m going to finally be free. I ( Read more... )

I’ve booked my flight down to New Orleans for the 24th of October.

I’m in the process of going through my things, and deciding what things to store, what to throw out, and what to take with me. I’m storing the rest between my neighbor and Shawn.

I’ve got a few job prospects going for me. I am hoping the connections I have pan out. If not I have a ( Read more... )

I have decided to go to New Orleans. It will be no sooner than the middle of October and no later than the middle of November.

As much as everyone says it’s changed, I have to go and experience it for myself. I have several very lucrative job prospects for the season and a very inexpensive and reliable place to stay. I need to free myself from all ( Read more... )