I'm pretty glad nobody reads this. It makes it an easy dumping ground to let it out ( Read more... )

...second worst day of the year.

At least it's all uphill until christmas...

Oh, wait...

No matter what I do I can't keep her out of my soul...

can't sleep... too much stress, some depression thrown on top. feeling the weight of inevitability crashing down up on me.

i had to STOP myself from crying tonight, it was for the wrong reasons.

i can't say i'm not scared...

Christ, I can't even keep my head screwed on straight... I'm up and fucking down for whatever reason stumbles by...

...I want to scream. The part of me that's been winning the good fight faltered and now the bad voices are winning again. After everything I've done, every step I've made, it's all come crashing down. I want to scream at people who waltz through their lives so self deluded that they thing everything they are, everything they have was earned. I ( Read more... )

I'd love to take you home with me and tuck you into bed. I'd love to see what makes you tick inside your pretty head. I wish that I could keep you in a precious Chinese box. On Sundays I would pray for you, so it would never stop. I'd love to hear you laugh tonight, I'd love to hear you weep. I'd love to listen to you while you're screaming in your ( Read more... )

And there are the tears...

It's been too long.

Sometimes I can't believe I even wake up in the morning. I've got nothing, no one. Everything around me is shallow, hollow, tainted ( Read more... )

It's not as long as it's seemed since I've posted... but i feel it's been too long anyhow ( Read more... )