Worst week yet ahead. I am very much not looking forward to it, but I am only 28 days from Vegas and I get to spend Valentine's Day with Kevin. We have been doing really well as of late and that makes me very happy. Nothing else to add really, just looking forward to some changes coming my way in the near future.

Started back to school and I am already feeling tired of it... I'm still going to try to look at the bright side and try to be optimistic about it all. I think it's a lot of school in a short period of time so I think I'm feeling a bit of burnout, but I am trying to chalk it up to just getting back from break and hating the fact that I have to be ( Read more... )

What an interesting turn of events tonight was... Can't go into detail just yet, but everything has changed for the better in just a few hours.

Knowing what I know now, I am sooooo glad I had already decided not to go to Kevin's parents' for Christmas. I am pissed, hurt, and confused. I don't want to talk about it, but I feel like I need to start telling my family so they don't have to bother with Christmas, but I really, really don't want to have to approach this with my family. ( Read more... )

How much time does a person need to figure something out, like deciding to be with someone for the rest of your life? Why does it take over 4 years to decide that's what you want for your life. I thought we had decided a few years ago that's what we both wanted. Now, I am left feeling hopeless. Nothing has changed. I had hoped that he could ( Read more... )

Last night, I told Kevin I didn't want to talk to him until he makes a decision about his life. I don't even care at this point whether he wants to be with me. I shouldn't have to wait 4 years and then give him an ultimatum, and then have to deal with him taking forever to decide what he wants for his life. I finally realized yesterday that you ( Read more... )

The end. For real ( Read more... )

one last shot and this weekend is it

4 years tomorrow and I'm not sure I want it to last any longer... Don't have the time to consider any of it, so I'm stuck.

So damn tired of drama. I just want to feel well enough to do work and be able to focus on school rather than the rest of life. I need to be able to concentrate on school, rather than the crap going on outside.