Lately, my concentration has been wavering. Lately, I feel the urge to cry, yet I can barely get pass the random small tears I shed. I do not understand the reason for this urge. Perhaps it's the emotions I suppressed in the past that are now trying to express themselves. What emotions? I honestly have no idea. The emotions just exist ( Read more... )

My heart beats calmly right now. Although worries still flow in my mind, happy thoughts flow along.

Yesterday, I realized my biggest life wish came true. No matter what will occur in the future, my wish came true. I am grateful.

Another day where she sits and thinks...lost in thoughts. Once again, emotions swell her heart. Too weak, she thinks...too weak. And once again, she's torn into pieces. Everything will be ok, she repeats to herself...but will it really be ok ( Read more... )

I recently saw this quote on my friend's status. "Loyalty = Betrayal" definitely caught my attention. It made perfect sense, yet it's so contradictory ( Read more... )

H officially gained a spot on my "idols/admirers" list ( Read more... )

She sits in front of her screen, mind half empty as she types on her keyboard. Mindless thoughts run through her head. Why does she feel a sense of guilt, of pressure, of loneliness? With one click, she can instant message her friends online and begin a conversation. Instead she sits, waits for the youtube videos to load, and types ( Read more... )

Life is good ( Read more... )

Reality scares me
Fantasy hinders me
Wish I was stronger
Yes....

Emptiness engulfs me. I feel unproductive. I should be studying, yet I'm stuck between...no idea.
Reality is slowly pressuring me, and that burden slowly drains me.
Is it a burden at all?
A part of life...
Yes...

 
Once again
Life is on repeat
Before I know it, I'll be dead without accomplishing anything
Potential exist
Yet I sit here and think instead of acting
Motivation exist
Yet I disregard them
Fear exist
Confusion exist
Yet I understand what I must do
Yet I'm caught in this cycle
Nobody I need is around
But they're all around
Oblivious
Busy
Indifferent
Distracted
Life ( Read more... )

By X Japan
Currently my ultimate feeling down song.

Yes.

I want to keep my thoughts to myself, I do not want to share them, but they are dragging me down.
If I share them, I'll relieve my mind but will get frustrated if I do not get the responses I want. So what's the point?