last night i saw martin perform in drag for the first time.  he was amazing, and i am not a fan of drag shows.  he performed a rupaul song and a goldfrapp song.  he was so happy to see us there.  and that was that...

alex, manu, joel, and i went to executive suites afterwards.  that was a mess.  i was tipsy being that all i had to eat was a diet ( Read more... )

i have been balancing on this line.  it is a hard decision that i have to make, but my curiousity is killing me, and i really think it would be fun to make the attempt for once in my life.  i am thinking that i will do so!  i am going to bleach my hair blond.

yikes!  i know what you're thinking.  my complexion is a medium olive, so that might look ( Read more... )

because they don't really talk at all, do they?

i like shakira.  i really do.  yes, she's mainstream pop-trash, but i like her.  there is something about anything related to lebanon that i have taken a liking to recently.  i am particularly fond of her song, "suerte."  that is all.

i freakin' love pepsi.  it's a guilty pleasure.  i have not had soda in two weeks, and i was craving some today.  i bought this huge pepsi from panda express.  i didn't even buy any food.  i just bought pepsi.  i'm bad.  i know.

so, i guess i should eat more.  after doing nearly two hours of cardio on the stairmaster on level 10, i grew really faint ( Read more... )

last night was insane.  i finally saw the grindhouse, and i squirmed the whole time due to the amount of violence and blood that i was exposed to.  both planet terror and death proof were really interesting, and i enjoyed the experimental aspects of the films.  the trailers for the faux-films were great!  i went to with martin and lesley to the ( Read more... )

the words can't escape my mouth so easily these days.  things take longer to surface from under my thin skin.  i know what i feel, but i can't put it into words.  it's out of control.

so, this morning, before going home to sleep, i stopped at anthony's (pinky) house.  i called him when i got off from work.  he was watching music videos.  his room ( Read more... )

this week, for a change, has been very uneventful.  it's so tranquil.  it's so peaceful.  i absolutely can't stand it anymore.  it's apple fritter's birthday on friday.  i guess we're going to akbar.  i'm probably going to see many people there that think i'm evil.  it sounds like potential drama.  i can't wait. 

okay, so maybe, i am a little too anxious.  however, after a return to that horrid club, lion's den, i overcame my sadness over what happened with roberto.  now, i am just furious.  i want to rip his face in half.  of course, i didn't express any of it.  i was very docile and calm ( Read more... )

wow.

wow.

monday, i was recovering from this weekend's heartbreak; i went to a bar in long beach and met people.  i slept with two men at once.  being sandwhiched is not all that it is cut out to be, especially when everything is aggressive.  i thought of roberto the whole time.  i cried myself to sleep afterwards.  tuesday, a guy called me.  his ( Read more... )

so, this weekend was really an emotional rollercoaster; i don't think i've ever felt more like a pisces than i did starting on friday night.

i got a text from roberto on thursday night about his wanting me to go to lion's den (a club in orange county...  eugh...  in costa mesa... eugh...).  i told him that you wouldn't even be able to drag my corpse ( Read more... )