It's been for fucking EVER since I wrote on here. It's weird. I'm going to delete my friends list, so anybody on it can take me off. I think I might make all the entries private too..I kinda left abruptly and it's odd to like..see all these entries just like, hanging out.

Anyyywwayy.

If you still wanna keep up on me: __fragilexthing

<3!Bekah

I'm making this post public, for numerous reasons. I'm sick of biting my tounge. I won't do it anymore. I also figure, because I don't have any friends right now anyway, I'm not going to be loosing anything. I'm not cencoring myself anymore. Becca, you will probably be pissed and stop talking to me, of course without noticing that you're already ( Read more... )

I'm giving up this journal. My life has changed alot since last year. I've often hated the fact that I feel like I have to censor myself when I post at times, because of the repercusions if I say what I think. I've had a friends only journal for a while now that's been a secret to probably everyone who reads this. I'm leaving the username. For ( Read more... )

This is going to be a hell of a long post, because I've got stuff to get out. Okay, here I go. Sunday was Jake's birthday, so I spent the day with his family. We went out to lunch with his cousin, aunt, and mom. I don't know his cousin very well, and she dosn't like me much I don't think, so I stayed quiet pretty much the whole time. Afterwards ( Read more... )

Who wants to guess who I just got finished taking care of? Why Danielle, my older sister. She's beautiful you know, so professional, so much dignity, respect for herself. Such a great rolemodel! HOW ABOUT NO. I'll stop bullshitting now ( Read more... )

I am so scared right now. Earlier, I was shaking so hard that I could barley move, while I was working on my Amy Lee site. Now it's kind of lulling away, but it's still hard to type this. I'm like in the lowering stages of another episode. When I went to lay down earlier i could feel my heartrate speeding. If I go over to Nana and Tatie, they will ( Read more... )

New layout..the very beautiful Amy Lee of Evanescence takes center stage. I'm in a very Evanescencey graphic mood. Last night I made four evanescence fanarts, and now with a layout. I'm steping away from my magenta-ness for an icy blue, which I think looks pretty damn good. On the way to Burger King in the car with Mom I made two more SMG graphics ( Read more... )

Tonight I had the scariest thing happen. Most of the pain I've been going through, has been the norm. It's sucked, and there have been times that I've been truly terrified, but not like this. I was sitting with Jake on the couch, and Evanescence was on TV. So I'm pretending I can sing and belting out some "My Immortal", and a little afterwards I ( Read more... )

Okay I am SO pissed right now. The WB is the lamest network on the face of the planet!!! What are you WB? Stupid or something!? They're planning on canceling Angel, apparently. Well, fuck that. If Angel goes, hopefully Joss can get like UPN to pick it up and have it on a network that realizes what great of a show they have. Sure, season five has ( Read more... )

I just got my Angel Season Three DVD's and watching "Waiting in the Wings" made me wanna get dressed all pretty. I really didn't realize that it would end up in the end making me feel like shit about myself. I just wanted to dance around and play dress up and feel all pretty. Since I don't have any dresses, I hit up Danielle's closet. I picked out ( Read more... )