im in a rut.. no a hole. well.. i dont know. but either way.. not good ( Read more... )

something always takes the place of missing pieces you can take and put together even though you know theres something missing ( Read more... )

fucking a, its finally the fall. so im a friends at work whore. i hung out with corey last night hahha. his one friend is fucking HILLARIOUS. he came to work today to bother corey and he spelled out 'alison is a turd' in the wood letters.

life is good. its good in a very serious way ( Read more... )

last night we went to the park in downtown westfield and saw... CRAWFISH! they were crossing the street to die, and some of them were going shopping.

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i hate being dicked around.
i hate being lonely.
i hate feeling like all my friends are avoiding me like the plague.
i hate not having anybody.

why do they hate me? like seriously, why?

im going to crawl into bed and stay there for the rest of the day because nobody wants to see me.

im so fucking pissed at this whole situation. so im going to look fierce. haha but still... i want to slap him. he thinks hes fucking right all the time. then again he is younger than all of us... but still.. fucking a.

why bother. i fucking wait forever ALWAYS. and tonight just to be embarassed ( Read more... )

so i moved this bullshit to tuesday after i see the ol doc. hopefully she can help me out, cuz she was gunna before, still is i guess. but if they test me, im fucked. i mean i havent been smoking but its been less than a month since ive last. oh i dont know i dont know. i dont like not knowing wahts going to happen.

i'm scared. i changed it to tuesday but im still scared.

dont worry amy and jess, there will be an in depth entry later on just for you but right now i have to sleep. i had to add that so i would actually write one and not just move on. but i will, no worries. cuz i know you gals like to know that i'm not a psycho or howver my lj makes me sound.