first of all, an apology ( Read more... )

ive missed myself here...i check my little lj every so often to see if ppl care enough to comment...on my last entry, i was so proud of myself...50 days without cutting and no one congratulated me...or even said i shouldnt be so proud myself...or something stupid of the sort. comments make me feel loved...lack of comments make me feel like im not ( Read more... )

i honestly had no clue until just now when i counted the days...

i have officially gone 50 days without cutting myself
or burning
or drowing
or pill popping

jeez, ive surprised myself

Imagine...orginally performed by John Lennon ( Read more... )

i usherd tonight. yes i was an usher for the middle school One-Act Festival. why? because i got to see the show for free. whenever i dont feel like paying for a ticket, i usher it. i stand around, take tickets, pass out programs and then i watch the show. not a big deal ( Read more... )

i just watched Edward Scissorhands...for the third time since sammy loaned it to me...i melt everytime i see that movie...at the very end where you see Edward making ice sculputers, a little tear rolls down my cheek because thats one of the sweetest moments in movie history ( Read more... )

My Perfect Girl

~understerstands my weirdness and eccentric behavior

~tolerates my sudden outbursts and habit of breaking into song

~someone who would be willing to go to the theatre with me and watch a play/musical

~i can talk about my past with them

~theyre ok with my need to constantly shed tears/blood

~doesnt prosecute me for cutting *even ( Read more... )

ok, so this weekend is shit. i have so much homework to do, and very little time to do it in...YAY!! i get to pull an all nighter for history...dammit *sigh ( Read more... )

today marks my 20th day without cutting! woo hoo...im actually proud of myself...now i get to walk to the drug store and get a package of Peeps and eat the entire thing! woo hoo!

~~Bekka

well...ive been on hiatus for awhile...if youve been wondering what ive been up to...lying on the floor of my room *sometimes face down, but not always* with the music turned up...sometimes i would sit on my bed and brood. ive found that i am a world class brooder, nothing will stop me from brooding *i love that word*...but yesterday, i visited ( Read more... )