what if I didn't call untill she called ....

I'd probly never hear from her !

Maybe I call her to much....

I probly need to call her less!

Maybe I'm to ready....

Maybe she's not !

Maybe I'm in love....

maybe she's not !

what if she moves away....

she's going to change!

when she comes back....

Things won't be the same!

once your gone...

your ( Read more... )

ok,that was not cool......I just had a whole page I was going to update my Journal and it timed out on me ...not cool...anyway...I'll have to do that another time..sorry you guys...hope all is well with the few that actually read this !

*Only 4 hrs of sleep in the past 2 nights my lifes a fucking mess

I don't know what to do, has this all come to soon

or maybe it came at the right time for us to find someone new.

I drink this beer down and I slam it hard because this ones for you

I don't know what to do, everything is so new

* you wanted me to hurt how sad is that of you, you get ( Read more... )

I went to work today and for the first time I broke down and cryed in the bathroom. I looked at myself and just said get it together. Your life is not over, there's others out there....But I just can't let go...she has my heart. as I cry a little more.... I know some of the things I'm not saying right...everything is come'n out ass backwards but ( Read more... )

I know I'm not your dream girl ( Read more... )

I'm here thinking about life. Semi sonic once said " There's always a beginging to someone else end" and that song holds very true in many different ways. I know that the world stops turning when you lose two loves in one year. I lost my grandmother this year and I also lost Jess. I just wonder who is going to be the 3rd loss. People always have ( Read more... )

You know when you feel like you have a group of friends and you feel they really really care about you....that has to be a great feeling ! Well, my so called group of friends...never call me to hang out or go out, they just head out to the american with my ex gf who broke up with me and....they haven't even called to ask If I'm all right and how ( Read more... )

ok so she broke up with me right......

she shows up to my work in witch I knew she was coming...not that big of a deal ya know...

well ..she get's there and says she went shoping for her new work clothes ..and I said " new work clothes at pac sun ?" and  then that's when she says " I bought you your sweatshirt" I said " why did you do that I go you ( Read more... )

I woke up with a pounding head ake today.....I think it's from all the thinking going on in my head, all the letting go and running away. take'n it's toll on my body.... The sleep i'm getting is so very good. It makes me not think of her and it puts all my pain away untill I wake up the next day.  Right now we talk on the phone once in a while or ( Read more... )

what would you do if your girlfriend randomly breaks up with you after a year ?

How would you deal with it ?

If breaks up and says " I still want to be your friend" would be that after being with her for a year?

How would you truely feel about it all ?

Here is my thoughts about my own questons.....

I'd be hurt and I'd have a million emotions ( Read more... )